Not Sure

I am afraid of intimacy.
Yet, I crave it with all of my being.

I am afraid of being abandoned after opening myself up.
So I close myself to some that I should open to,
and I open myself to toxic people.

I am afraid of being alone.
I have learned to do things by myself, and I've gotten pretty good at this.
But it doesn't help the cravings to be with people and do things with others.

I am learning to face my fears.
One day at a time.
One step at a time.

It's hard, but it's manageable, once I allow myself to take baby steps towards connecting with others again.

I feel better.
Things are not always perfect,
In fact, relationships are downright messy,
but facing my fears one step at a time
feels good.
(After I've done it...)

asparrowwithahome asparrowwithahome
41-45, F
1 Response Nov 28, 2012

life is simply a journey to be experienced... ups and downs, and all the rest... and messy!

Yeah u sure are right about that