My husband has an enormous amount of rage inside of him and when he gets angry he yells at me and punches things. He has only lost his temper 3 or 4 times in the 4 years we've been together but it terrifies me and I have flashbacks to being violently beaten by an ex-boyfriend when I was in my early 20s. I don't feel any love or warmth for my husband anymore and I really regret marrying him at times. Our sex life is non-existent and I have a strong feeling that he may be gay or even asexual. But he's from a foreign country with a misogynistic culture, which I hate, and English is not his first language. We've had some misunderstandings due to culture and language but his violent temper is absolutely a dealbreaker for me. I'm so unhappy and I feel scared and unloved. I wish I had not ignored the red flags when we were dating. How could I be so stupid to keep repeating this pattern? I know I am going to have to leave him. Strangely, I don't really feel bad about that.
ParisCafe65 ParisCafe65
51-55, F
Aug 31, 2014