I can't talk about this subject very long or I'll start bawling. I love my mother very much. The thought of her dieing terrifies me, but I know eventually it will come to pass. My mother is not young anymore. She's in her 70's and has worked so hard all her life to help her children. We would be lost without her. In the past 10 years since I was married. Me and my husband have had huge finacial trouble. We have never quite seemed to make ends meet. She has always helped us out when we really needed it, and I am eternally grateful. Even now she still helps us. We don't expect her to, but she does and I don't know what we would do without her. Not only does she helps us in that way though. If we are down and need a shoulder to cry on. She is there. If we are lost and confused. She helps us find our way. There have been so many times that I have done things and failed and got so depressed. My mom was always there to pick me up again when I fell. There are times when I have been so full of despair and felt so alone. My mom has always been there to tell me it's ok and that I am loved. I just don't know how I will make it without her and I know when she passes. It will be the hardest thing I'll ever have to endure. I just hope that day is not too soon. Because I never wish to let her go. I want to keep her with me always. That is all I can say for the moment. As I don't want to start boo hooing like a baby. Only one more thing. I love you mom. and thanks for always being there.