Not It Of Itself But Public And Embarassing

i can stand rejection, it's when it happens in front of others and everyone sees it and it becomes humilating that I fear it like hell. 
ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix
31-35, M
2 Responses May 23, 2012

I'm also scared to death of it... It's competely ruining my life as i can't move forward, I feel so trapped, like there is no way out, especially in relationships. I don't want to commit to any guy as I fear that one day, i might get old and ugly and he may not love me anymore, and leave me for someone else. I've lost faith in relationships these days as its way too easy with modern day technology for people to cheat. I just can't handle the thought of looking like a fool, the humiliation, so I won't even open my mind and say to myself... If its ment to be it will be. I need serious help!! I've even tried counselling, but I just can't change my mindset. Is there anyone out there as crazy as me?

me to but i hate it all the time