Frightening Future

I had the worst childhood imaginable. I was so happy to leave home at 17yrs old and leave the state to move to CA. Every time I try something new, it turns to crap. I have the worst luck ever. I'm hoping what I'm working on now will be successful, and my family will think twice about calling me a stupid low life. It always hurts to hear that from mother, a couple sisters. I'm older. It's more manageable, I'm at the point I don't give a crap what they say. I only talk to them once every couple months. The future just frightens me.
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11 Responses Nov 26, 2011

I've heard your story and i think you should make your name "hate4evilstepdad"! he needs a nice injection...<br />
of death!

do not be frighted. you make life what you want it to be. your very strong so you will be fine and things will turn out good in the end, i will tell you this looking at your photo your a very beautiful young lady,

its all true and its from my heart

Well you can't fight that fight alone. You need a friend that sticks closer than a brother and that is Jesus Christ.

Here is a poem, and keep this in mind. It is so true....<br />
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Don’t Quit<br />
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When things get wrong, as they sometimes will, <br />
When the road you are trudging seems all up hill; <br />
When the funds are low and the debts are high <br />
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh; <br />
When care is pressing you down a bit, <br />
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit. <br />
Success is failure turned inside out; <br />
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt. <br />
And you can never tell how close you are <br />
It may be near when it seems afar; <br />
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit – <br />
It’s when things seem worst that you mustn’t quit.

I'm in Cali, up by Clearlake. Write me if you need anything or just want to talk... ;-)

never be afraid to take any risk cause by taking risk u might make a mistake but gain experience remember mistakes are only painful when they happen but years later collection of mistakes are called experience which lead to successes and always aim for the moon so that when u fall you will fall on sky dont shape ur life like earthand ground that anyone will walk on always shape it like the skies that anyone will wish to reach to and also u should be determine and fully committed with wat u want and no matter how many times u fall will never count wat counts is how many times u stand up again this is too long but the fact is short

Depression sucks..I didn't have the most wonerful supportive childhood either. Stay strong, and do not let anyone define who you are. Most people I find that try to make you feel less, only do so to make them self feel superior.....

Stay Focused on wat u do there will be obstacle on the way But if u overcome it Sucess is sure to follow You :D Nothing is Impoosible IF u hav the determination to do it And Ask God to help in ur journey as he is our Father Who Watches us :D And Abt Ur Family No matter wat they say Let those word go into ur one ear n Throw it out frm the other ear :D Think like this ur mother sister insult like A Challenge ^^ whn u get sucess all those wrd they said will be gone lise *PUFF* Good luck :D

change ur story into positive i will help u see<br />
I had the worst childhood imaginable. I was so happy to leave home at 17yrs old and leave the state to move to CA. Every time I try something new, it turns to something awsome. I have the best luck ever. I'm know what I'm working on now is successful, and my family will not think about calling me a high life. It always feels good to hear that from mother, a couple sisters. I'm older better. It's more manageable, I talk to them once every couple months coz I'm at the point I don't give a crap what they say.. The future just does not frightens me

This is not about your family, it is about YOU. Even if you fail, you are not supposed to listen to anyone's critics. Failure is part of life. It is a human right to fail.<br />
But I would tell you not to go on this journey with fear or anger for your family. These negative feelings could pull you back, block you.<br />
You need an opened heart and of course, you need to trust yourself. So forgive and forget about what your family says. This is about you. It's your path and your chance.

im sorry but i don't think you've heard about her stepdad!
but i would think the same thing to if i didnt hear her story...

Big High five for you! :D Just one tip : don't let fear get the best of you. Fear is one of the most harmful emotions that influences you to not having that good mindset you have set placed. <br />
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Otherwise, I believe you are a really strong person, considering you moved to CA at age 17! Continue to follow what your heart tells you and be true to yourself(: