No Longer AfraidI am no longer afraid that I will end up alone because I woke up this morning realising I have already accepted it. There is simply something about me that has stopped people from getting close to me, not that any have ever tried. It will just mean little changes in my life. I have been holding off buying a home because I wanted to get somewhere with a backyard for the kids, but there are never going to be any. Perhaps a life of contemplative solitude is what I am really after, to read and work on my creative side. I won't have to worry about looking attractive when I go out, that will be a plus :P
Saying all that, despite closing the door on ever finding someone, I am not going to lock it. I don't think I am going to look anymore, but will be happy if people come looking. I just want to remove the pain of constant hope and the inevitable rejection and despair that comes after it.