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Not Truly Afraid... But More Just That I Have to Accept It

I always fall for the girl who is not obtainable. I throw in my whole heart, yet in the end, she chooses not to be with me.

All in the meanwhile, of course, I let die a relationship with a woman that loved me, but I couldn't love her back (though I tried, and I prayed that I could)

Yes. I am destined to be alone. I am just hopeful now that I won't have to be alone for a very long time before I pass out of this world.

baka baka 31-35, M 7 Responses May 17, 2008

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No. No matter what happens, she will be the last.



If it turns out badly, then I will never be with another woman so long as I live. It just hurts much too hard.

I agree. What you're really saying then is she won't be the last. It will hurt for a while, but eventually you'll try again.

There are people like that out there. The hard part is finding them. Someone who is a world away may sound great until you are around them 24/7. You never really know. It's always a gamble.

Amen

LATELY I HAVE HAD THE SAME FEAR. I HAVE GIVEN MYSELF WHOLEHEARTEDLY TO OTHERS, MY FAMILY, MY CHILDREN, AND NOW THEY ARE GROWING UP, LEAVING TO LIVE THEIR LIVES, I AM FEELING ALONE, AND WONDER IF I WILL EVER FIND THAT MAN WHO CAN APPRECIATE WHAT I HAVE TO OFFER AND WHO CAN OFFER ME UNCONDITIONAL LOVE IN RETURN, WHEN THAT IS ALL I WANT. I DO NOT WANT SOMEONE TO FINANCIALLY TAKE CARE OF ME, I JUST WANT SOMEONE WHO CAN CARE, AND LOVE, AND BE TRUSTWORTHY ENOUGH FOR ME TO OPEN MY HEART TO.

OK THERE IT IS FOR NOW

Something deeper.



Usually it is the way they treat people and me included. The sad thing is that I always hold back until they tell me they love me first. That tends to open the dam... And I feel free to love them in return.



She is unobtainable because she lives half a world away, and I am stuck here with no money and no passport while a schmuck who is only interested in her body is free to spend the night with her and call himself her bf.



It just hurts too much.



I cannot take it any longer. She will be the last.



Choice or destiny? Either or. When it all boils down to it, they are both the same.

No one is destined to be alone. If you are identifying women as unattainable, you are setting yourself up for failure and for misery. That is a choice not a destiny. What makes you fall for a girl? Looks, or something deeper?