Almost 29

In the 30 days I have come extremely close to death. Both times it was work related and complety out of my hands. Thing is getting so close to my own mortality and my birthday has really gotten me thinking. I'll be 29 in 3 days and I have nothing to show for it. I don't have a place to call my own; but that really dosent bother me so much. The big thought that is eating away at me is the fact that I have no one. There is nobody for me to hold at night, nobody who is there when I get home from another day spent cheating death. There is no reason for me not to spend every waking moment at work because I have no where to be. I feel so alone so.... lonely. I think for the first time in my life I truly truly am afraid I will die alone
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26-30, M
May 9, 2012