I am very much afraid of ending up like my parents. Now don't get me wrong, I had the most amazing mother in the world, and I'd give my last drop of blood to have her back, but she had a bad habit of needing a man in her life to feel like she mattered, and I always kind of looked down on her for that. As much as I love my boyfriend, I know deep down that if I did not have a man by my side, I would not break down and not be able to function, her on the other hand, even after my father left, she was always bringing home guys, and the worst of them. Maybe she was just lonely, maybe but anytime one would leave, she would break down and not want to do anything, not be able to do anything, and I always saw that as a sign of weakness.

Now my dad, rat bastard, Glad he is dead. had a HUGE drinking problem, and myself, I'm only in my mid 20s and I have already had my problems with drinking, and I am always afraid that being an alcoholic is in my future and that scares the living day-lights out of me.
NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel
26-30, F
1 Response Apr 13, 2014

You've had two examples of what you don't want in your future, learn from them.
Get on top of your drinking now, before it gets on top of you.
You're young.
Carpe diem!