I Think

I think I know why I don't share too much of myself, at least the deep, really hurt stuff.  I'm afraid because when I was younger, I would get groups of friends, and on two different occassions, I was told, "I NO LONGER want to be your friend."  That was 2 seperate occassions.  Not to mention, my very first childhood friend, the person I would spend endless hours playing with, one day, suddenly decided she no longer wanted to hang out with me.  Because of all of those experiences, I have sense pushed people away, chose not to let people get close to me, and kept everyone at a distance so they could no longer tell me, "I don't want to be your friend anymore."  I'm waiting for the day that all of you will tell me that too :( *sigh* 


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4 Responses Feb 11, 2010

tick tock, tick tock, tick tock.. this theme of rejection is hard to hear about. i understand why you are the way you are much better now though.

You have to take baby steps and gradually share more and more of yourself! Are you aware of what the deep hurt stuff is?

i am sorry but what i had to do was be brave and break out of my comfort zone

omg, what ********. *hugs*