This Is My Story Part 2

Because I don't want to bore you about what happened between the ages of 10 and 15, I'll just tell you in a nutshell.  Basically Mom got drunk stupid about 5 days out of 7.  She did take good care of me in between bottles.  I had to learn a lot about being a young girl on my own.  I had my first real boyfriend at 15.  He was 19.  That didn't last too long as he complained that I was a bit too bossy.  Hmmm, I wondered why?  To say the least, he left for his pregnant girlfriend, because I wanted to remain innocent. He was seeing her all along.  They're still married today.  I kept a diary of my life for years after that.

At that point in my life after the breakup, I was crushed.  I got over that by getting another boyfriend who ended up cheating on me too.  Go figure.  By the age of 19, I was done.  I had had my share of boyfriends and decided to go to college.  I had left life as I knew it with my alcoholic mom, my dad who didn't claim me and my cheating ex-boyfriend.  Why did everyone seem to hate me?  That's what I was thinking, so I carried on to please me.

I ended up meeting a lot of interesting people away in school.  Some liked me, some hated my guts.  But I grew from that experience.  It was totally different than living with Mom.  I was gone until the age of 23, never graduated, got kicked out of school because of grades and didn't go back.  I left the area, to return home to Mom for the second time.  The first time I came back home, I had fell in love.  It was so sweet, but our mothers hated one another.  So I ended up breaking his heart, going back to the town I went to college in, for him to break mine later in the years to get married.  I got over that.  But he didn't.

After I came back home for the final time at the age of 23, that entered me into a string of apartments, jobs, boyfriends, and being able to not save any money.  Up until now.  I am a 38 year old Mom of a 19 month old going on 5 year old daughter, with her dad of almost five years.  I have dogding layoffs at my job for five years. Still unable to save any money, but I can say that I feel  successful aan blessed.  Thank you for your time, for my story.  It would've been longer but I wanted to make it short and sweet.
micia73 micia73
36-40, F
1 Response Apr 17, 2012

Live is not always easy I have not had it easy but I have learn to enjoy what I have. Yes, U are very blessed and always remember that.One day U will look back and where to time want.My daughter is 21 now I had her in school.We made it I was blessed she did have her father in her life.I married my sons father but,it was no working after 12yr together I decided to call it quit we split up.My life is been very happy from that day until now.I'm 38yr old the last3yr has been the best yrs of my life I can be who I want to be....I have a nice man in my live.I learned to be happy with myself I have meet some dear friend and I have met foe.....with that said just love yourself and your kids because that is all U will have when it is all said and done.PEACE,LOVE,HAPPINESS!

Thanks and I have found out that I loved myself long throughout mom's ordeal. She's been sober now almost 8 years.