I Am My Own Black In AmericaI love my skin. It is Carmel brown, soft, smooth and silky. It is what defines me. I had no choice when I came into this world to be a "N", colored, black or African American. But, I can chose how it defines me. I chose not to be ghetto even if it was my zip code. I chose an education over welfare and babies. I chose not to marry a man for his money and a way out of my mama's house, just because i could. i chose not to be some white's mans trophy wife even if he loved me for me. I chose not to allow a black lawyer make me stand still, be quiet and look pretty in front of the partners of his law firms. I left him at the door and moved on with my life because I am a FUNDAMENTAL WOMAN THATS ME!!!!!
I am proud of my skin. i am proud of my culture. I am proud of me. i grew past that pretty little colored girl. And became a Wonderful, open, loving, smart, kind, humble Black woman. I am deserving of love, human kindness and understanding despite my skin color.
I ask that you open doors, because I am capable of doing the job not because of the the color of my skin. I ask not to be judged or seen as a thief simply because i put on sweats and tennis shoes and a scrap on my head just to go out and get a loaf of bread. I ask that you get to know me first before you ask me about some rapper. Cause I don't know their name. I listen to country music that's me. I ask that you not apologize to me for the past, for saying or calling someone the "N" word, your guilty for not standing up to racism. I forgave you already. I prefer an open and honest conversation about our differences so we can learn to live together.
And, if one more white girl who dates a black man, put some cornrows in her hair, larger hoop earrings in her ear, sagging pants, and tells me she is blacker then i am. I will really Dial 1-800-choke-a-***. That is not black. I'm not being white. Just finding my way in this life as a curvy, beautiful, black woman who loves red necks cause she is from the south, country music, high heels, saying sweetie and god bless your soul, yes/no sir/mam. reading a book, going to the museum, talking about politic, etc.....
I am Black In America
misery22 36-40, F 6 Responses 4 May 28, 2012