I Am My Own Black In America

 I love my skin.  It is Carmel brown, soft, smooth and silky. It is what defines me.  I had no choice when I came into this world to  be a "N", colored, black or African American.  But, I can chose how it defines me.  I chose not to be ghetto even if it was my zip code. I chose an education over welfare and babies. I chose not to marry a man for his money and a way out of my mama's house, just because i could.  i chose not to be some white's mans trophy wife even if he loved me for me.  I chose not to allow a black lawyer make me stand still, be quiet and look pretty in front of the partners of his law firms.  I left him at the door and moved on with my life because I am  a  FUNDAMENTAL WOMAN THATS ME!!!!!

I am proud of my skin.  i am proud of my culture.  I am proud of me.  i grew past that pretty little colored girl.  And became a Wonderful, open, loving, smart, kind, humble Black woman.  I am deserving of  love, human kindness and understanding despite my skin color. 

I ask that you open doors, because I am capable of doing the job not because of the the color of my skin.  I ask not to be judged or seen as a thief simply because i put on sweats and tennis shoes and a scrap on my head just to go  out and get a loaf of bread.  I ask that you get to know me first before you ask me about some rapper.  Cause I don't know their name.  I listen to country music that's me.   I ask that you not apologize to me for the past, for saying or calling someone the "N" word, your guilty for not standing up to racism.  I forgave you already.  I prefer an open and honest conversation about our differences so we can learn to live together.
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And, if one more white girl who dates a black man, put some cornrows in her hair, larger hoop earrings in her ear, sagging pants, and tells me she is blacker then i am.  I will really Dial 1-800-choke-a-***.  That is not black.  I'm not being white.  Just finding my way in this life as a curvy, beautiful, black woman who loves red necks cause she is from the south, country music, high heels, saying sweetie and god bless your soul, yes/no sir/mam. reading a book, going to the museum,  talking about politic, etc.....

I am Black In America