What Came First the Chicken Or the Egg?

I have been on antidepressants for over 6 years.  It was given to me after I had my son and I was suffering in pain in my legs and arms

like a burning sensation. I went to so many doctors they came up with the ol' fibromyalgia and put me on effexor.  Then during that period in my life I actually did get depressed because I was still in pain.  It escalated to a pain doctor who gave me pain pills, muscle relaxers, long and short acting sedatives and the Fentynl patch.  I was so screwed up.  I did want to die.I became obviously addicted.  Now after getting cleaned up I was left with a real "mood disorder"bi polar supposedly.  I am off everything, I think the drugs and the Effexor caused the mood disorder. Because even after recovery from narcotics my life has been a mess because of my frame of mind.  I would love to come off effexor.  My doctor insists I don't feel depressed because of the effexor.  If I miss a dose and I did wean and so forth, I had with drawls worse than the narcotics.  I get brain zaps if anyone has ever hear of those, dizzy, nauseas and incredibly verbally abusive and angry.  I was never like this prior to being on these meds.  So, what happened?  Was I depressed before the pills? or am I wacky because of the pills?  I cannot go without them, not one day.  I have been on them so long my body and mind cannot handle even skipping one dose without awful consequences.  I am mad.  I feel a little damaged by this.  But, I am excepting that it is what it is right now.  I just hope in 20 years I don't find out it causes cancer or something like that.  This is bad enough.

startingovergirl startingovergirl
36-40, F
1 Response Mar 17, 2007

effexor is the one drug they have finally succeeded at. This is the most dangerous yet! Argumentative? Why the hell not? Everyone that takes it is, and i have sadly lost many friends because of it. You don't know what this drug cost me. O/our two adult children will never know that their mother truly loves them. Pharma tormented and killed my little brother, and my best friend. <br />
Please find a way out; i will try to find some answers. What city do you live in? Write me if you like.<br />
:)<br />
slave.alex