I Just Cant Reconcile It...

I have been diagnosed with depression.

I never believed in depression until it hit me.

I still don't believe in antidepressants, even though it has been said to me that I should start taking them immediately because of the adverse effects depression is having on my life.

I want to beat this on my own, but I'm scared.
KarmaFred KarmaFred
18-21, F
1 Response May 7, 2007

I fought against anti-deressants for a full 2 years after i was diagnosed with clinical depression. The whole thought scared the hell out of me. After finally being diagnosed and watching my life fall into a black hole I decided that in NOT at least trying them, I was doing myself a diservice. Afterall, if i was diabetic and had to take insulin to live, would i fight that? Well sadly it is not the same becuse unfortunately there still is so much ignorance in this world about chemical imbalances in the brain. BUT it is a fact not FICTION. Well I started taking them AND no my life didn't become blissful with me floating on a cloud over night, but they did allow me to get UP out of bed and start to be productive again. Stupidly a fw years passed, and I thought, wow, I don't need to take this drug anymore, so without octor supervision, I just stopped. Two months later I tried to kill myself, SO, for me it is not a CHOICE it is a FACT that I need them, hopefully not for the rest of my life but even if it is for the rest of my life, well who really cares. A recent difference that I just started to realize and change, like any disease without a cure, you can succumb to it, and be a victim all your life, or you can do EVERYTHING to fight it, and for me until recently the ONLY thing I was doing was taking the medication. I am now incorporating other things to help me live a fuller life with this disease. DUGS alone for me was not the answer BUT without them I would be dead.