Antidepressants Should Only Ever Be Temporary!!!I took Zoloft once. I was about 16. I felt very overwhelmed by life at the time. My doctor practically forced me to take it. I took it for about a month then I started feeling like all of my emotions where in a bottle... I couldn't cry or anything... It drove me mad. I later realized that what I was going through before the medication was a natural phase of my life that I absolutely needed to go through and survive un-medicated to grow as a person. I ran out in a month and vowed not to go back on antidepressants or and kind of medication for the brain as long as I live. Doctors are always trying to shove that stuff down your throat. The problem with the world today is we are lazy. We're always trying to go for the quick easy fix. We shove this medication down our throats so that we don't have to deal with the initial problem rather than learn to push through it on our own and gain strength as a result. I went through a nervous breakdown later on in life (around the age of 19). It lasted 2 1/2 months. I had some REALLY BAD anxiety attacks that were so incredibly frightening that you cannot even imagine. I was having about 7-8 of these randomly every day for those 2 1/2 months, but I learned to understand where they were coming from rather than medicate and forget. I found that my anxiety was trying to tell me something rather than hurt me. It was trying to tell me that I was going about life in the wrong way. When I discovered the source of my anxiety and tried to work with it and not against it, I started to have less and less. I now live anxiety free. I have a friend who was too scared to do this un-medicated when she was younger and first started having anxiety attacks, and she still has them... not only does she still have them, but she has to take even more medication to get rid of them. I just want to tell you to be careful with the medication. It never solves the problem, it only sweeps it under the carpet. This only leaves the problem for you to deal with in the future. I believe that we are here on this planet to learn more about ourselves and the world in which we live through all experiences good and bad (PARTICULARLY THE BAD). We are meant to deal with this and fortify our inner strength. Trust me, I speak from personal experience. I do, however, realize that there are many different circumstances out there, but I strongly believe that many of us can do it if we only give ourselves the chance to prove it. You really have to believe in yourself though. It just really ticks me off that doctors cannot understand this. They can be so naive and misinformed for people that we are supposed to trust with our health. If you really want to rid yourself of depression and anxiety, you have to do it the hard way as scary as it is. Trust me... you will mature worlds and gain worlds of strength as well. I was diagnosed with chronic depression, post traumatic stress and anxiety disorder. I've been working on myself un-medicated for years. You never gain perfection, but you grow to manage it in ways you can never understand if you're too scared to get off of the medication. Go to therapy if you need to. I'm now 23 and still going strong. I watch many people still struggling with these types of problems. They wonder why it never goes away while they shove their next higher dose of pills down their throat. The reason is, they aren't doing anything to work on the problem. It's like putting new siding and landscaping on a house that is rotting and falling apart in its structure. Sure the house looks nice on the outside, but, pretty soon, that house is going to collapse if someone doesn't just rip it apart and put hours of good solid work into repairing the structure and foundation.
Good luck, I really hope with all my heart that you figure out what you need to do. It can be scary as hell at times, but a few years down the road, you will really know what the payoff is and appreciate all that you've done for yourself.