There is a crowd of people all around me. They are all chatting and laughing. I am joining in. I flash them a smile and I look and act like I fit in, but I don't belong here. I don't trust any of them. I think they are all superficial and fake. In this scenario, I am a fake too...pretending that I care about their vacations, their home renovations, or their perfectly manicured lawns. It is all meaningless. I don't care about how "wonderful" their lives are. I am sure they don't care about my bull s%$! either. I can't wait until the evening is over and I can retreat to the seclusion and serenity of my domicle. This is why I am all alone. This is why I will always be all alone.