Still Depressed After All These Years

I've taken meds and had therapy for many years. The only thing getting better is the bank accounts of the providers. It never goes away. Currently I feel pretty awful and hopeless. Nothing makes sense anymore. I just don't care. I want out, but I do not have the courage to commit suicide. I just want to walk away from a life that is not worth living. My motivation is non-existent. I don't really care about anything, job, family, friends - I'm just indifferent. I just want to be alone, but it hurts.
roamerxx99 roamerxx99
46-50, M
Feb 11, 2010