Its Not A Story

I am completely alone. I dont talk at all because when i do nobody listens to me. im not a pretty girl and i just hurt myself be it throwing up or cutting myself not where anybody can see it of course. not that anybody would care or notice. i just need someone to actually be interested in what i say or at least fake it and give some made up sympathy. the worst part is that no one i know even notices that im feeling like this unless i make it completely obvious which is not in my nature at all. that means that no one even cares enough to get to know me. i would kill myself if i wasnt paranoid about what would happen.