Abnormal??

My house is filled with family and friends, the smell of dinner coming from the kitchen. Everyone laughing and telling stories of yesterdays. Everyone excited to pile in the truck soon and go to the drive in. Sounds like a good family night.........YET.......I am sitting here wanting to go curl up in my bed and read a book. I want the world to go away. Wanting so bad to feel apart of them yet feeling nothing but emptiness......What the hell is wrong with me? I cant breath, I make up yet another excuse that I don't feel well and then bolt to my room and curl up with my cat...........finely alone. Its quite except the voice in my head and the sound of snowman purring. *Breath a sigh of relieve* lying here thinking Why am I so ABNORMAL?????????