I am completly alone although I live with 5 other people. I can't find a way to not feel awful. I have two daughters and I live with other family members so really I am never alone, but I feel like I am. My oldest daughter is twelve and needs me to be a mom and I can't do it. My youngest is only six months old so my sister tells me it is post partum. Maybe it is, but it doesn't help me. I am the only one working and we are constantly behind on bills.I hate my job and my boss is a jackass. I just want to not feel badly all the time. For the past three years I have been taking tylenol pm just to get to sleep and every night I take more and more. Now I am up to taking 30 a night. I am scared to keep taking them and I am scared to not take them. I don't know what to do anymore. I am tired of everything. I need help but I don't know where to get it. I don't even have the time to look for it.