Physically I LOVE to be alone but emotionally I HATE IT and it confuses me. I push people away from me but I do it because I want them to beg for my existent because I don't feel real sometimes. When I'm alone it's just like omg who am I why am I here my life is a waste and sometimes when I around people I care for it feel happy and then other times I feel worthless even in a room full of people I just mimic the mutual feeling to get by when deep down I hate myself to the core.
TheSocialite TheSocialite
18-21, M
3 Responses Aug 24, 2014

I found this that seems to help people with advice. I just thought I should tell people.

I know how you feel I'm through this as well.

I feel your pain your pain...your not alone you just need to find people who lift you up and make you feel worthy of their time