a Bit Sad, Even Though I Shouldn't Be

So it looks like I'm going to be alone on Thanksgiving this year, for the first time. I can't afford to fly home (2000 miles away), and I certainly don't have the patience to drive or train it. My friends are all leaving town to join their families or significant others.



And me, I'll be alone on Thanksgiving.



Which makes me sad, sad enough to write this, because Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. It's the one you really can't commercialize, because it's not about presents or spending money, but people and food. It's not polarized or split into a thousand different pieces because it's not religious.



Instead, it's a great opportunity to look at your life and realize that as bad as you might think you have it-- and trust me, I've had a bad year-- there are still many things in this life that I should be grateful for. And maybe if I thought about that more often, the things that are going bad wouldn't necessarily sting as much.



But we're human and we don't think like that. And being alone on Thanksgiving makes me lament, not celebrate that I'm even alive, and healthy enough to eat, and living in a country with the opportunity to celebrate, and so on.



No, I want the typical parties, the people, the boring conversation, the reminders of my childhood.



Instead, I'll eat alone and watch TV. Maybe get some work done. And try and keep my mind off the fact that I'm alone on Thanksgiving. Because I know there are millions of others just like me. And maybe by writing this, I'll have connected with a few of you.



Happy Holidays,

CCN
CasaChevyNova CasaChevyNova
31-35, M
5 Responses Nov 20, 2006

oh god boo ******* hoo imagine being sepperated from your wife and kids and family for the second time in a row **** man thats sad even my left alone friends wont join me hahaha thats ******* hard man b thankfull your life aint mine ***.......... excusse the *** part just bitter you know

This will be my first time alone too. My heart breaks hearing your words. I wish there was something I could say but I know the pain all too well. My boyfriend is miles away and my mother wants nothing to do with me. I pray that you have a good day and that you will find peace.

im sorry you two are seperated i know how much that hurrts but youll be ok atleast i imagine you will you know

I was alone for the first time too, had to work yesterday and have to work tomorrow, so I wasn't able to go anywhere and I really wanted to see my mom. :( Watched tv too, I have friends on DVD so watched the thanksgiving episodes. :)

i wish we had a thanksgiving holiday here but we dont.. i hope next year is better for you. consentrate on the good and try and forget the bad. difficult i know..<br />
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if u need a chat...<br />
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x

I've ALWAYS felt so sad at the thought of ANYone being alone on any holiday...especially Thanksgiving or Christmas. But, I LOVE the way you describe Thanksgiving and why it's really cool....you're right...it is about people and food...about real fellowship. Even though my Thanksgiving this year ended on an extremely painful note, the important part was full of people, food, laughter and love......there's enough of it left to spill over to you....maybe late, maybe right on time. But, if knew you, I would've made you a plate and mailed it to you! (home made pierogies!!!)<br />
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Happy New Year!!