I Just Want To Be Happy
I fake a smile every day of my life, right up until i go to bed, then all the tears just poor out. I wont try in front of anyone, i cant. I feel weak when i do. I hate my life. I self harm and i always feel alone. I use art and music to get my feels out, i have no one to talk to. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. I hate my appearance, and i hate what i look like. im insecure and self conscious. i have no confidence at all and i dont trust anybody. i feel so lonely, why cant i just be happy? I try so hard everyday to look on the positive side of things, but i feels like there isnt a positive side. i cant talk to my bestfriends about it because they wouldnt understand. i've been taken advantaged of and abused most of my life i feel so weak and useless. no one really cares about me, if i were to die, no one would notice. I'm quite shy and no one notices me at school, im sick of people acting like i dont exist. im crying out for help but its like no one can here me. i just want to be happy.