I'm alone again for the holidays, seems like its turning into a tradition of its own. I think it wouldn't hurt so much if I didnt have anyone in the world, but it hurts more knowing that I have family yet they don't want to spend time with me. I guess this is what its like being an adult, all grown up. Well it sucks and hurts like hell. I wish there was some way to stop the pain. I'm scared it might overpower me. I'm trying really hard to stay sane. God help me!
Written on December 25th, 2009