This has been going on for a while now, but I've constantly been angry and annoyed at everyone and everything, including myself, and I've just felt so alone and worthless. Recently I've just started lashing out at members of my family and hiding in my room. The only things that seem to calm me down are listening to music and talking with a select few of my friends. I constantly have all these thoughts and feelings in my head and I feel like I'm always about to explode and go crazy. I spend hours awake at night just shuffling through all my thoughts and by the time I fall asleep I end up getting about four hours of sleep each night. I'm constantly trying to get out of going out with my friends and I hate going school. I'm barely about to concentrate at school. I've never really been self-conscious of myself but for the past few months I have and I hate looking at myself. The other day I ate barely any of my dinner and felt bloated afterwards so when I got into the shower I purposely puked it out and then started scratching my stomach like crazy until I got those little red dots across it. I know it isn't safe doing those things but they're the only things I can do to help me get all the anger and frustration out of me. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone without sounding annoying and attention seeking. I just hate feeling this way and was wondering if there was anything I could do to make myself feel better.
Nicolicious1 Nicolicious1
18-21, F
Aug 22, 2014