There Is A Solution To Your Problems

My past:

Due to an attempted abortion by my own mother, I was severely wounded in the womb. In fact, the wound went far beyond the physical aspect. The sinful act of abortion causes much deeper damage to a child than most people can imagine. Yet, as I was growing up, I had no idea how much that incident had affected me. Until many years later.

Since birth, I had been constantly struggling with the spirit of rejection. The fear of rejection and self-rejection enveloped me like a web, spinning around me layer upon layer of self-destructive lies and delusions. In a twisted fashion, fear and self-rejection had become the idols in my heart. I literally worshipped them because I allowed them to rule and reign in my life!

Due to my intense fear of rejection, I dared not open myself up to receive love, let alone to show love to others. I simply refused to risk being rejected by others.

Very often, I suppressed my true feelings and buried all my emotions into the darkest abyss. Over time, my heart became a cold hard stone. It was so hardened that I could not cry easily. It was as if my soul was locked behind an invisible castle located high up in some remote mountains, while my thin body was found walking and breathing at sea level. Sometimes, the people around me found my behaviour rude and abrupt. Sometimes, they found me painfully unapproachable and strange.

Like a pressure cooker, my willowy frame was filled with pent-up emotions--the guilt, the shame, the anger, the dejection, the self-abuse, the self-hate... Eventually, they had to find their way out somehow. One physical manifestation of the pent-up emotions was revealed by my extremities. The skin on my fingertips was constantly peeling, cracked and bleeding. Very often, I also experienced intense pressure and pain on my left eye which the doctor could not diagnose the cause.

My present:

Jesus has saved me and set me free from the emotional bondages in life. I am grateful and thankful and would like to share His love with people who are looking for a solution to their problems and challenges in lives.
Luke 19:10 “ For the Son of Man came to seek and to save that which was lost.”
Emma2013 Emma2013
46-50, F
Jan 17, 2013