Exhausting

continuous self-improvement is great but also a bit exhausting. i'm always, always competing with myself... i want to do at least as well as i've done before and am always disappointed if i don't. it makes it hard to enjoy things sometimes.

 

D07C D07C
22-25, F
1 Response Jul 19, 2007

Maybe reading about performance, learning and adaptation works might ease your mind a little on this? After all, for most human systems there is a period where ob<x>jective performance falls, in order for actual ability to improve. *draws a curve with a dip and then and further increase* :P Do you keep performance logs for anything? Maybe keeping some ob<x>jective data will help reassure your mind that what you want is a *trend* improvement, which is the way the world works, not improvement every single time, which is not the way the world works :)