On My Road to Victory
For the past 7 years, my life had been mostly a struggle, more so psychologically, as I had acquired a lot of fears which at the time I could not understand, let alone deal with.
I was shy, anxious in just about any social situation, and eventually got depressed. I realise now that I suffered also from a low sense of self-esteem, and that contributed largely to my problems.
I'm proud to say that I never gave up, for there were times when I felt completely alone and worthless, and I felt I could not talk to anybody about my personal problems. I did my own research on anxieties, depression, and recently, on self esteem and psychotherapy, and have since then gained a wider understanding of the nature and causes of my problems.
So through my self-initiated effort and without the help of any psychologist, therapist or medical drugs, I was able to get myself out of the seemingly vicious cycle of negative thoughts, self-defeating beliefs, and self-sabotaging actions. Consequently, the level of anxiety I now experience in general in my life has dropped significantly.
Life has gotten more exciting, and I have taken more responsibility over my whole life. Currently, I am confronting some of my more dormant fears that get activated in certain specific situations, and continuously questioning the conditioning, beliefs, tradition etc that have been inculcated in our heads since childhood, that we have merely accepted without challenge, and that could be working to our own detriment.
Slowly but surely, everyday, I'm making little gains, and will continue until I've achieved a large sense of personal freedom to live the life I truly want to live!