I Feel Lost And Don't Know What To Do...

I used to be a cheerful and fun person, so much that i'd usually be the center of attention. But all that has started to change, perhaps it's because im hitting some major hormones as a teen or perhaps this is how i'm really meant to be. I've become dull, sad, pessmistic- a completely different person, and i don't know what to do. The people i call friends leave me constantly to go with others, and i can't make someone laugh, no matter how much i try. I attempt to be happy or at least pretend but it never works out. I've come to the realization that i like being alone, much that I've even pushed the dearest people in my life away.I find comfort in my room by myself and prefer to stay ther rather than go out and have fun with friends. I want to change but don't know how. I feel like i lost something important, perhaps my joy, and somehow i lost it along the way. I don't think this is depression but i've come so close to it that im begining to be afraid. I hate the person i've become, can someone help?

talkovercoffee talkovercoffee
18-21, M
1 Response May 26, 2010

Maybe start going out with your friends even if you dread it at first. I find by doing something I don't feel like doing in the beginning, I always find entertainment by the end. Also, you could try to be more cheerful and happy. By going out more, you will have more interesting stories to tell. :) good luck.