Home Is Chaos.

Family is always something i craved. Even though i was lucky enough to have a step dad a mom a brother and a sister there was so much void and anger to enjoy it, my real dad is in prison for robbing a bank when i was young, before that my dad let his 14 year old nabor take advantage of 8 year old me. i was scared and let it go on until i was 10 thinking i was a sinful child and that it was my fault that it was happening. My biological father has just gotten out of prison and is in a half way house... im ready to see him but im not going to be able to ask him why...Because he was using for a long time. Meth heroin. Everything you can imagine. Im now 18 and live with my boyfriend because my brother was too physically abusive to live with. Im happy im in a better enviorment but i just cant seem to wrap my head around the fact that i missing something in my life. Not sure what but whatever it is its keeping my really down. Imconsistently angry about nothing and very sensitive and sad. 
Maganmccurdy Maganmccurdy
18-21
May 21, 2012