My "friends" Are Not Mine

The worst thing is knowing you are the charity friend. You are only invited because you are the best friend's girlfriend.

Recently it has become painful obvious that the friends that I have had for the past 4 years could care less if I dropped off the face of the Earth. I love my boyfriend and he loves me, and he wants me with his friends. He doesn't seem to notice they don't really care if I am there or not.

There is no hate, just we aren't friends. I have recently noticed that my "friends" will hang out without me, or never call or invite me anywhere. My boyfriend will get the invites, but I never do. The guys are always friendly and cordial, but they have nothing in common with me.

I should never have lost touch with my girl friends. College happened and they went all over the world. My boyfriend and his crew did not. It seemed natural to assimilate with that group. 4 years later it is painful to be around them.

My problem, my boyfriend does not understand why I will not hang out with his friends anymore. He doesn't think there is anything amiss. But I don't like being where I am not wanted. I have tried to fit in but I just don't like what they like, and they all like the same things so they get along super well.

I am out of ideas and don't know what I should do next...
Pbeckett7 Pbeckett7
22-25, F
May 14, 2012