Lost Childhood

My story is very hard for me to write because it makes me feel angry and sad at the same time. My whole situation has left me with mixed feelings. I am 62 years old, my family life as a child was filled with domestic violence and an alcoholic mother.My sisters and I saw and heard things no child should. I have an older sister 2 years older than me, I had a younger sister who was murdered at the hands of an abusive husband. My sisters and I never finished school, we were left alone to fend for ourselves alot of times. Our dad was always working, when he came home he would eat, then head off to bed. Our mother would take off for days, sometimes weeks. We never knew where she was but we knew that she was drinking. My school life was horrible, I could'nt concentrate or study just always worrying if mom was home drunk or if my dad was beating her. It was awful.My older sister married at age 14 I married at age 16 my little sister was pregnant at age 15. I married my husband and we were both 16. I am blessed I have a good guy, he is really good to me. Not so much lucky for my sisters. My older sister has been married several times and was in abusive relationships. She is now divorced and struggling with parkinsons. My younger sister married an abusive man, she had 2 other  boys. She was murdered in 1982 left 3 sons ages 15 - 18 and was murdered on her youngest sons birthday. Our family has not been the same. I hope I can help some one with my story,I have a lot more to say and will continue later.

Thank you for listening

mother mother
61-65, F
3 Responses May 2, 2007

There was not much in the way of violence in my house, but my father, who was an alcoholic, also molested my sister (14 years older than me) and me when we little. Fortunately, my sister and I have talked about it, and I've worked through the pain to the point of forgiveness and understanding. It helps.

Wow we do have a lot in common, sorry for the loss of your sister. The pain of the act of murder and suicide are terrible. The families that are involved are never the same. I had an uncle and 2nd cousin who cmmited suicide also. Thank you so much for your kind words and i know you really do understand my pain, here ia a BIG BIG hug to you(((((((((((((((HUG)))))))))))))))

Wow! You've endured a lot. I'm sorry. I'm glad that you are okay, now. <br />
People (a lot of them) don't realize that the same bad things that are going on now went on back then. It was worse actually, I believe. Because everything was so "hush-hush" and alot of it was the nirm to "keep the wife or kids in line". I'm just glad that they see abuse today for just that. ABUSE.