How I Came To Be An Air Force Girlfriend

This is my first story here on EP. I joined because I was looking for some kind of support for the big change coming up in my life. I obviously joined this group because I am an Air Force girlfriend. My boyfriend and I have not been together very long at all, as of today we've been seeing each other for two and a half months, and have only started calling each other boyfriend/girlfriend for an even shorter amount of time. That would be my fault, before I met Nick I was "dating around" to put it nicely. I didn't want to invest my heart in anyone, and I had no intention of making any real commitments to anyone. This was because my last long term boyfriend (2 1/2 - 3 yrs) completely broke my heart. We were together two years before I couldn't take it anymore. I gave him all I had and I was always his support, but he always put me last on his priority list, took me for granted, and his parents controlled every move he made. It just got too hard. Then we broke up, got back together, broke up, got back together, and broke up for a third time and he said we needed to become "friends" again before he'd take me back. He just never wanted to recommit to me, so I started dating around to make myself feel better, but never committed because I was hoping for him to come back to me.
Nick knew my personality well, he knew I'm the type of girl that's really "one of the guys." Don't get me wrong, I can be a girly-girl, but my personality is the type where I'm always more comfortable hanging with guys than girls. I met Nick through his best friend, and even though we shouldn't have taken things where we did (his best friend was the one who was interested in me, I have known him since the sixth grade), it was the best awful decision we've ever made. Nick saw me for who I was, and couldn't believe his best friend was blowing me off, talking about me behind my back, and just not treating me the way I deserved. After we messed up on a camping trip, he pushed to get to know me better, and to spend time with me. I felt awful about the situation and resisted at first, but gave in. We really did have chemistry, we had a lot in common, and we both broke down each other's hard shells. Because he knew my personality, he knew I wasn't going to commit easily. I also knew, from the very first time we met, that he was going to be leaving for basic January 1st. We planned to be casual, and not to get too involved with each other. HA! We couldn't control our emotions, and we fell in love. He's mine, and I am his. I haven't ever been so happy with someone. He's everything I ever could have hoped for, and he's everything I didn't know I could wish for. The downside is, he's leaving! I have less than a month with him, and I'm freaking out. I'm not sure if I can handle it. It's been a long time since I've been in a real relationship, and I've never been in a long distance one. I'm scared. I hope our short time together is enough to keep the fire burning. We've both kept guarded hearts for years, and we both are in love and happier than we ever have been. He's the one I've really been waiting for, I'm fully committed to him, and I think we can do this. It's crazy, it's happened fast, and he's leaving soon. :(
LiviaRose LiviaRose
18-21, F
Dec 2, 2012