Sick Of Being Sick And Tired

my story, been drinking and druging on and off for 20 years, lost apartments, cars, money and most importantly myself. lost relationships with family,lost time i can never get back i am so tired of just existing i want to have happiness, but i do know as long as i keep drinking i can never really have that. i can have momentary happiness but it is not real and all i end up with is depression and sadness. i went to rehab 2 months ago but messed up since, i have really been struggling with  the mental obsession, i have been going to meetings but i dont know why i keep relapsing. i would appreciate advice if anyone can help me.broken heart
poopsie65 poopsie65
41-45, F
1 Response Jul 12, 2010

It takes time, and a few relapses, in my case, I've lost count. But each time you fall, you get up, and try again. Sooner or later it works. It is all part of the process. It was more difficult than I thought, but I am glad I kept at it.