I Am An Alcoholic
Very common phrases you hear from Alcoholics are:
"I can't get comfortable inside my own skin."
"I just have a few drinks to relax."
"After a couple of drinks, I feel more like myself."
"I enjoy myself around people more with a few drinks."
The common theme here is that their internal feelings of discomfort & unease are relieved with Alcohol. This frequent & often constant internal discomfort they are describing is actually Chronic Anxiety. The fact that it is so rarely clearly identified & properly treated as such is one of the biggest failings of mental health professionals, therapists, & Alcoholism counselors. It also explains why Alcoholics crave medications like pain killers, barbituates, & street drugs. They are self medicating with these & Alcohol for a clear, intelligent, & reasonable purpose: to stop the emotional pain & discomfort.
The problems with this is, they are using substances that carry heavy personal, financial, health, & social consequences. Secondly, they are treating the symptoms & not the cause. Which leads us to the obvious questions, what causes this Chronic Anxiety, & what can they do about it?
Most people fail to understand & make the distinction between Anxiety caused by External factors like stress, abuse, & trauma, & the Anxiety caused by Internal factors such as Low Thyroid, Hormonal-Endocrine problems, body Toxicity (especially by heavy metals), & Pyroluria. They do not recognize the difference between the Internal & External causes of Anxiety because they both provoke almost identical feelings & everyone's life comes with some stress & misfortune so they usually blame all negative feelings of Anxiety (& Depression) on these. To initially recognize that one has an internal metabolic disorder is every bit as difficult as admitting that one is an Alcoholic for the first time. And if we can attribute all our problems to what has happened to us, then it's not really our fault & we are not really defective or bad in some way. There is no shame or at least there should not be, in having a metabolic disorder.
The presence of an internal Anxiety producing disorder easily explains why some people can handle & recover from very terrible stress & trauma while others with very similar experiences, do not. I believe that almost all long term & serious PTSD requires an internal chronic Anxiety condition. And that a person with a serious case of Chronic Anxiety would still feel stressed & nervous under relatively stress free circumstances. (This is what Agoraphobics are trying to achieve with isolation.)
But Alcoholism & substance abuse are Not in themselves natural metabolic disorders or diseases. They are a self medication response to a disorder or disease. We can choose how we respond, at least in the beginning. If the person chooses to begin using strong habit forming behaviors & addictive drugs, the power of choice eventually, sometimes quickly, becomes seriously compromised & huge efforts must be made to regain the power of choice & free will in order to overcome these strong habits & addictions. Best not to start them.
The most common internal metabolic disorder among Alcoholics is Pyroluria, a "medically unrecognized" but very real condition. The Medical Establishment is also extremely hostile to vitamins, herbs, natural therapies for Cancer or anything else, an Autism-vaccine connection, & any & all questions of their Supreme Wisdom & Authority, & has the Government in their pocket to enforce their wishes & position. The common thread here is concern for medical & pharmaceutical industry profits. This is why its so important to take charge of your own life & health & educate yourself so you can make informed decisions & not be a pawn of their heavy advertising & almost complete dominance of your own Doctor's education, thinking, & treatment options.
The many Alternative websites that recognize Pyroluria as a real condition, usually say that 50% of Alcoholics have it. Alternative Mental Health's "Safe Harbor" says 80%. I believe it is probably more like 90% or more. The common thought is that Pyroluria is genetic. I am absolutely positive it is Not genetic, but a multi-resistant infection originating with poor diet & made worse with high use of sugar, caffeine, & ordinary antibiotics. I know all this for certain because I myself have had a very serious case of Pyroluria for most of my Anxiety filled life. I abused Alcohol & drugs & would have become a full blown Alcoholic if not for three factors. I couldn't stay awake long enough when half drunk to establish true dependency, always had difficulty completeing any task, & discovered the joy & many self medicating properties of sex instead.
The point is, I had been intensely researching Pyroluria for over two years looking for a more effective therapy than constant vitamin supplementation & suspecting that it might possibly be caused by a microbe. In December of 2006, while looking for something to help me get over a week of feeling absolutely lousy from a Flu shot (never again), I tried an inexpensive food concentrate from the health food store which is also found in many ethnic groceries, thinking it might help me & certainly couldn't hurt. It is usually used for baking & flavor & almost never eaten in the therapeutic quantities that I used. I was astonished when my Anxiety from Pyroluria became dramatically reduced to almost zero & I enjoyed an alert, peaceful calm even better than when using Xanax, which usually leaves one tired & somewhat mentally slowed. And my very unpleasant reaction to the Flu shot immediately disappeared also as a bonus. I'd stongly advise everyone to Google Flu shot ingredients like Squalene before getting another. And to blazes with "herd immunity." Don't follow the herd. Look after yourself & your own best interests.
The fact that a simple, natural food concentrate with known antibiotic properties but no direct central nervous system effect can temporarily interrupt the Anxiety of Pyroluria & that a second food therapy can gradually reverse it, absolutely proves that Pyroluria can not possibly be genetic. Common, inexpensive natural foods do not have the power to make genetic repairs. Can you name one genetic condition reversed or interrupted by food?
Secondly, I met a young woman at an AA meeting who had a MERSA infection & noticed that the Vancomycin noticablely lessened her urge to self medicate with Alcohol. This is not scientific proof (except for me) but something which begs to be investigated honestly, something the Pharmaceutical- Medical- Rehabilitation Triad of Profit will never permit or do honestly. They also fought the H. pylori cause of ulcers for twelve years. (Pyroluria is not connected to pylori, just looks similar.) If anyone else has had or heard of a similar experirnce with Vancomycin, please post it here.
Incidentally, 12 step programs have the highest failure rate, binge rate, & death rate of any Alcohol therapy program. (Forgive me for questioning anyone's personal belief system.) Cognitive therapy, Betty Ford, Passages Malibu, & Dr Drew don't do so well either. In contrast, my therapy addresses the root cause which is the Anxiety that causes the urge to self medicate thereby greatly lessening the strong cravings & the terrible agony of relying on sheer will power to overcome these. (Google: AA success rate.)
Now since I'm promoting a book & a therapy elsewhere on the web, here is what I'm willing to tell you for free in this forum while trying not to make an outright commercial out of this. (Please notice that I'm not putting a link, the name of my book, or my full name in this post.) Carefully investigate Pyroluria, Low Thyroid, Toxicity, & Endocrine-Hormonal problems in that order of likely prevalence. Some people have more than one of these conditions. I have all four, which explains much of my life. In my opinion, money for extensive testing is better spent on actual therapy. If you have the Anxiety & several of the key symptoms, you most likely have the condition. If it's Pyroluria, it would be fine lines on the fingernails, crowded teeth, dry skin, & more. In that case, try a test therapy for about 2 days of taking 100mg of B6 evry 2 hours or as needed to see if this calms some of your Anxiety. (B6 overdose is difficult to achieve, takes considerable time, has a mild effect, & causes no permanent injury. They like to scare you away from anything that might help you cheaply.)
In conclusion, research with determination, like you really want to get well in a hurry. See if you have Pyroluria or these other conditions which may be causing your self medication urges. Investigate well & see if you too might come to believe that Pyroluria may really be a common resistant infection, easily treated with vitamins & foods. Don't be too discouraged or too skeptical if everything you have been told & tried so far has failed to work very well. The right answers are out there, you just have to separate them from the very profitable wrong ones. And don't believe everything you read, even from me. Prove all things to your reasonable satisfaction.
I wish you the best,
Michael K.
"I can't get comfortable inside my own skin."
"I just have a few drinks to relax."
"After a couple of drinks, I feel more like myself."
"I enjoy myself around people more with a few drinks."
The common theme here is that their internal feelings of discomfort & unease are relieved with Alcohol. This frequent & often constant internal discomfort they are describing is actually Chronic Anxiety. The fact that it is so rarely clearly identified & properly treated as such is one of the biggest failings of mental health professionals, therapists, & Alcoholism counselors. It also explains why Alcoholics crave medications like pain killers, barbituates, & street drugs. They are self medicating with these & Alcohol for a clear, intelligent, & reasonable purpose: to stop the emotional pain & discomfort.
The problems with this is, they are using substances that carry heavy personal, financial, health, & social consequences. Secondly, they are treating the symptoms & not the cause. Which leads us to the obvious questions, what causes this Chronic Anxiety, & what can they do about it?
Most people fail to understand & make the distinction between Anxiety caused by External factors like stress, abuse, & trauma, & the Anxiety caused by Internal factors such as Low Thyroid, Hormonal-Endocrine problems, body Toxicity (especially by heavy metals), & Pyroluria. They do not recognize the difference between the Internal & External causes of Anxiety because they both provoke almost identical feelings & everyone's life comes with some stress & misfortune so they usually blame all negative feelings of Anxiety (& Depression) on these. To initially recognize that one has an internal metabolic disorder is every bit as difficult as admitting that one is an Alcoholic for the first time. And if we can attribute all our problems to what has happened to us, then it's not really our fault & we are not really defective or bad in some way. There is no shame or at least there should not be, in having a metabolic disorder.
The presence of an internal Anxiety producing disorder easily explains why some people can handle & recover from very terrible stress & trauma while others with very similar experiences, do not. I believe that almost all long term & serious PTSD requires an internal chronic Anxiety condition. And that a person with a serious case of Chronic Anxiety would still feel stressed & nervous under relatively stress free circumstances. (This is what Agoraphobics are trying to achieve with isolation.)
But Alcoholism & substance abuse are Not in themselves natural metabolic disorders or diseases. They are a self medication response to a disorder or disease. We can choose how we respond, at least in the beginning. If the person chooses to begin using strong habit forming behaviors & addictive drugs, the power of choice eventually, sometimes quickly, becomes seriously compromised & huge efforts must be made to regain the power of choice & free will in order to overcome these strong habits & addictions. Best not to start them.
The most common internal metabolic disorder among Alcoholics is Pyroluria, a "medically unrecognized" but very real condition. The Medical Establishment is also extremely hostile to vitamins, herbs, natural therapies for Cancer or anything else, an Autism-vaccine connection, & any & all questions of their Supreme Wisdom & Authority, & has the Government in their pocket to enforce their wishes & position. The common thread here is concern for medical & pharmaceutical industry profits. This is why its so important to take charge of your own life & health & educate yourself so you can make informed decisions & not be a pawn of their heavy advertising & almost complete dominance of your own Doctor's education, thinking, & treatment options.
The many Alternative websites that recognize Pyroluria as a real condition, usually say that 50% of Alcoholics have it. Alternative Mental Health's "Safe Harbor" says 80%. I believe it is probably more like 90% or more. The common thought is that Pyroluria is genetic. I am absolutely positive it is Not genetic, but a multi-resistant infection originating with poor diet & made worse with high use of sugar, caffeine, & ordinary antibiotics. I know all this for certain because I myself have had a very serious case of Pyroluria for most of my Anxiety filled life. I abused Alcohol & drugs & would have become a full blown Alcoholic if not for three factors. I couldn't stay awake long enough when half drunk to establish true dependency, always had difficulty completeing any task, & discovered the joy & many self medicating properties of sex instead.
The point is, I had been intensely researching Pyroluria for over two years looking for a more effective therapy than constant vitamin supplementation & suspecting that it might possibly be caused by a microbe. In December of 2006, while looking for something to help me get over a week of feeling absolutely lousy from a Flu shot (never again), I tried an inexpensive food concentrate from the health food store which is also found in many ethnic groceries, thinking it might help me & certainly couldn't hurt. It is usually used for baking & flavor & almost never eaten in the therapeutic quantities that I used. I was astonished when my Anxiety from Pyroluria became dramatically reduced to almost zero & I enjoyed an alert, peaceful calm even better than when using Xanax, which usually leaves one tired & somewhat mentally slowed. And my very unpleasant reaction to the Flu shot immediately disappeared also as a bonus. I'd stongly advise everyone to Google Flu shot ingredients like Squalene before getting another. And to blazes with "herd immunity." Don't follow the herd. Look after yourself & your own best interests.
The fact that a simple, natural food concentrate with known antibiotic properties but no direct central nervous system effect can temporarily interrupt the Anxiety of Pyroluria & that a second food therapy can gradually reverse it, absolutely proves that Pyroluria can not possibly be genetic. Common, inexpensive natural foods do not have the power to make genetic repairs. Can you name one genetic condition reversed or interrupted by food?
Secondly, I met a young woman at an AA meeting who had a MERSA infection & noticed that the Vancomycin noticablely lessened her urge to self medicate with Alcohol. This is not scientific proof (except for me) but something which begs to be investigated honestly, something the Pharmaceutical- Medical- Rehabilitation Triad of Profit will never permit or do honestly. They also fought the H. pylori cause of ulcers for twelve years. (Pyroluria is not connected to pylori, just looks similar.) If anyone else has had or heard of a similar experirnce with Vancomycin, please post it here.
Incidentally, 12 step programs have the highest failure rate, binge rate, & death rate of any Alcohol therapy program. (Forgive me for questioning anyone's personal belief system.) Cognitive therapy, Betty Ford, Passages Malibu, & Dr Drew don't do so well either. In contrast, my therapy addresses the root cause which is the Anxiety that causes the urge to self medicate thereby greatly lessening the strong cravings & the terrible agony of relying on sheer will power to overcome these. (Google: AA success rate.)
Now since I'm promoting a book & a therapy elsewhere on the web, here is what I'm willing to tell you for free in this forum while trying not to make an outright commercial out of this. (Please notice that I'm not putting a link, the name of my book, or my full name in this post.) Carefully investigate Pyroluria, Low Thyroid, Toxicity, & Endocrine-Hormonal problems in that order of likely prevalence. Some people have more than one of these conditions. I have all four, which explains much of my life. In my opinion, money for extensive testing is better spent on actual therapy. If you have the Anxiety & several of the key symptoms, you most likely have the condition. If it's Pyroluria, it would be fine lines on the fingernails, crowded teeth, dry skin, & more. In that case, try a test therapy for about 2 days of taking 100mg of B6 evry 2 hours or as needed to see if this calms some of your Anxiety. (B6 overdose is difficult to achieve, takes considerable time, has a mild effect, & causes no permanent injury. They like to scare you away from anything that might help you cheaply.)
In conclusion, research with determination, like you really want to get well in a hurry. See if you have Pyroluria or these other conditions which may be causing your self medication urges. Investigate well & see if you too might come to believe that Pyroluria may really be a common resistant infection, easily treated with vitamins & foods. Don't be too discouraged or too skeptical if everything you have been told & tried so far has failed to work very well. The right answers are out there, you just have to separate them from the very profitable wrong ones. And don't believe everything you read, even from me. Prove all things to your reasonable satisfaction.
I wish you the best,
Michael K.
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