i'm glad i'm not the only one going through this. i've recently picked up on binge drinking and it has given me a reason to live, something to look forward to. and i have to lie to people and pretend nothing is wrong, but i just cant face my life. I don’t want to live anymore. Drinking is the only thing that helps me get through it
endofseptember endofseptember
26-30, F
4 Responses Jan 30, 2011

If you go through life drinking you become dependent on it as a coping mechanism. If you keep binge drinking it will catch up to you and its effects will start to change and you will become less numb and more emo, as well as making you idiotic and irrational. trying not to drink afterwards is really hard, sobriety sent me borderline insane a couple of times, and it took years of me drinking less and less and giving up again and again before I to learn to handle life without it. I am still not sure i am completely over it.<br />
I am depressed, but I found a kind of appreciation of depression as part of life. while drinking you become numb it makes your life worse, and you truly never get over any problems you have or progress as a person.<br />
I don't believe life is about happiness, don't know what it is about but if it was we could all take drugs and go on a never ending holiday.<br />
Persevere, exercise fortitude, learn resolve there is value in life that is worth finding,even if it is easy to forget sometimes. Suicide is not an option.<br />
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I can relate to the mentality of addiction... I some how know that it would be easy for me to become like you are... some how though i have been lucky enough not to have stayed in binge mode long enough to get hooked.....<br />
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Once you are hooked its for life.... no going back....<br />
So while others say "stop you need help" etc....<br />
If you know you do not have the will power to stop... my advice is....<br />
Switch to pot....and fast....while its not ideal to supplant one drug for another....<br />
you do not want to become an that is a life long struggle/disease.<br />
And once you go there you will ALWAYS have that monkey on your back...<br />
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So as a temporary fix.... stop the drink and start the weed....

@ bl<x>inky: my problem is i dont want to live, but when im drunk, i dont care about that and can finally be happy, if even for a little while

yes,true.<br />
alcohol was my best friend and coping mechanism,but it ruined my life.<br />
It takes time to get healthy again,but you can do it if you want to.