Still Battling It....

I am a strong believer that in Order to get something, virtually anything, you need to pay the price. Sometimes, the price is monetary, sometimes you need to pay with your time, your energy, but you need to pay the price.



Jimmy choo

Just keep on putting on foot in front of the other and hang on to GOD he will come through for you I know I have been there,even when you fall in your falling ask GOD for the strenght to get up again and do not be so unhappy with yourself, just keep going on one day at a time.GOD LOVES YOU.

The actual fear of alcohol was something that helped keep me sober in the beginning. I was afraid to take another drink and I was also afraid to face life without one. I knew that for me to drink was for me to die and I didn't want to die. I no longer fear alcohol, but I know and accept that it is just not an option for me as an escape from life or for a way to celebrate life. I don't miss it, and I have a pretty good life, actually an amazing life, compared to what it was when I was a practicing alcoholic. AA is a program for living and it teaches me how to have a happy, healthy life and provides me with tools to live by. I have met so many great people in the rooms and so many out of the rooms since I have been on this journey. It is a process, it takes time to grow and I had to really want to change my life. Pick yourself up, brush yourself off and get back into recovery. It works!!! Good luck!

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Good on ya. Your not under any illusion that u can drink like a non alcoholic anymore. Good clear thinking ability on ur part. Now get to those AA meets wont you.

Hello friends.....



At first I didnt think i had a problem, I was miserable in my marriage for no reason, i suffered depression, i suffer from major anxiety, and my father is sick... So when I would drink a small bottle of wine in one sitting I didn't see anything wrong, Well Alcohol has ruined my marriage. It got to the point I had to drink everyday. Like if I didn't I felt weird and my husband started noticing my habit and how the only time I would pick a fight with him was when I would drink. Oh he was no better than me, having a cocaine problem in his late twenties before we got married, but he went to rehab for that and got clean. I am not knocking people who go to rehab and I know they only want the best for you, however i used to hate when he would tell me to go to AA meetings, or that I had a problem that I was showing all the signs.



In the the back of my head I am saying to myself " really dude.. You were addicted to cocaine" ... though an addiction is an addiction it would frustrate me that the advice was coming from him... at the current time we are seperated. Strangely enough he relapased and ended up in the hospital, and i continued to drink , but the weird thing is , my drinking is not so heavy now. I am starting to think that he was the reason I was drinking. or was it many reasons. Whatever the reason is , I can't blame anyone but myself... I have a drink here and there now, and you would think that now that I am on my own I would be drinking more. However , I don't.



I am going to go to an AA meeting just to see if I am indeed an alcoholic. I think my definition used to be a person who would wake up drinking and drank all day. However an alcoholic is a person who needs it period. Doesnt matter if you wait to get home for that drink, or stop at the bar after work for it, or socially drink with friends a little too much. Or home drinking alone.



It's a battle for me, and that alone says i need help. For all those suffering my heart goes out , because I too can relate to this demon. I pray we can face the world and be happy without having to have a drink to feel happy!



Good luck to all!



Magic25

Beyond "sober" and beyond "clean" there is God. That's what takes care of the fear for me. I spent a good part of my life drinking and drugging to mask the fear and the pain of being "less than". It got so bad that my morning after ritual was to stick a finger down my throat to upchuck the poison I had ingested the night before, backed up by a beer I'd steal from my dad's stash, then I'd lock myself in the bedroom, throw a blanket by the crack of the door and light up some pot and, if i had it, a line of cocaine just to get rid of the hangover and be "set for the day". Gratfully I was exposed to AA by run ins with the law and if it hadn't of been for that I would be dead now. The 12 steps I consider to be God's gift to mankind and they are 100% effective. So my best suggestion to you is don't drink or drug, go to meetings and read the first 164 pages of the Big Book. It's pretty easy to spot it's a big blue book with the title Alcoholics Anonymous on it. Take care and Godspeed.

Just for Today....I have been trying and trying and trying for almost two decades, but I have not given up the hope for sobriety. So many jails, so many ruined relationships....BUT it can get so much worse. I have almost lost everything, but I have not. I still have so much. I must remember to not take that first drink, because then that drink will take a drink and then that drink will take me. It has happened too many times.

I will always be an alcoholic -- even though I celebrated 34 years sober this past Nov. My reprieve is, I feel, due to surrendering, joining AA and depending on my Higher Power each day. What a trip!!

Please pray about it.

I can only comend you for your courage,to tell everyone I,m an alcoholic..I lost my last wife to Jake Daniels..oh how I hate him,,I drank heavily till I found something in my life that would not tolerate drinking,,I,m a professional Truck driver now,,we are drug tested frequintly and alcohol also..If I fail I lose my job I lost my wife look deep inside you and see if you can find what realy is important to you,,,I think you said your relationship ,,do it for you and then your relationship,don,t be afraid to fall you,ve got training wheels, look in the mirror and say to yourself I,m proud of you today you can contribute more sober than drunk. my love and prayers to you .trust in God he listens even though he wont tell you he does

I just added a comment to you just a few minutes ago and as I read it I started to cry because if I could hold your hand and say you can do it ..a song is playing (country ) its called the good stuff.. I want you to be strong thnx again (big boys don,t cry ) oh

It is a slip. A relapse would be to continue and take you down the long rode down hill. I had a "slip" yesterday myself. If it helps you to say your an alcoholic then by no means do so. Years ago I also did myself but it didn't help me. Until I realized that I am merely an human being for which alcohol is a problem when I drink, I continued to spin my wheels. Let's just get over this moment and move on to a bigger and better obastacle in life.

i am in the very same state as you i was sober 95 days and then sliped i already am going to aa meetings and they do help you are not alone real friends are there for you and will help you through i am now sober again 6 days but every day is a strugle my thoughts are with you and i hope manage to have the strength and courage to continue to stay sober my name is Aiden and i am a alcoholic that will never change but each day i try good luck stay sfae

May I ask a basic question here? Why does this web site ask for no information, no questionnaire, and no invasion of privacy? Yet, the questions, and answers, are real. Sorry to interrupt the flow here, but this exact blog made me very curious.

I say, just don't drink today. It's ok to make mistakes. Get a sponsor, go to meetings, ask for help, join a group and get active in that group. You'll soon learn that not drinking is the easy part of recovery. It's the other crap we have to deal with that the tough part. That's where the suggestions come into play.
With the grace of god, and the simplicity of the program, I have not had the desire to drink in 9 months.
Good luck!

almost 6 months sober now it can be done with the help of good friends and familey good luck all

Hi,

It's been 5 years now that I have given up addiction...I can tell you It's wrong to identify yourself as an alocoholic or anything else...We are Born free and are forever free...From the core of our being we are really free from all these Identification and tendencies....My Addiction ,It's Gone forever and That is the reality...I am Human Being that is reality...I would not have been alive ..What really helped me was Yoga...It helped remove the dependency.. It made me realize my potential as a human being.. Please try googling for Sudarshan Kriya , a Yogic breathing Technique...This changed my life...I hope and pray that it helps you and your loved ones. I guarantee you will have a Smile on your face. :) God Bless

Well done so far. Hope you are still on top of the demon.

One comment from a recovering alcoholic now in Year Ten: you talk of losing your fear of alcohol but I actually don't want to lose that fear. The fear of alcohol and what one drink has the power to reduce me to is one of the most powerful motivations to keep me sober.

Use the fear as a positive tool and you will be empowered by that fear.

Don't give up .it's better to try and fail than fail to try! Good luck xx