I have been sober 25 days this time. I think it's for good this time, it's only been 15 years since I took my first drink at 14. Its only been 9years since I was in rehab. I dont think of an ice cold beer all the time anymore, I dont spend my last ten dollars on a six pack anymore. I dont worry about where I will get my next drink anymore, because I dont take the first one anymore. Its surprising the clarity and control I have now. I think I kinda like it. Its always going to be lurking around I know, there in my shadows that want that need that urge to take a drink. Its never going to leave me alone, but as long as I am in control with a clear head I will be able to stay ahead of this disease. I am an alcoholic, but I have 25 days.