Today I Quit Drinking

Well today is the first day of the rest of my life. I am sober for the first time in a very long time. I have drank for about 30 years. I am 58 and that makes for some serious alcohol issues. I am nauseated, shaky, dizzy and I have the runs. But dang it, I am sober. My liver also feels sore which I never noticed before. I wrecked my car and was arrested in 2008 but I did not stop drinking. But I decided today to quit. I quit smoking and I think it is going to be a lot harder to quit drinking that it was to stop smoking. Alcoholism is in my genes. My mom died from it. My brother is an alcoholic and homeless and may be dead. I don't know. Alcohol was my God. I worshiped it. A friend is taking me to AA on Monday as I do not drive since the accident as my license was revoked. My hands are trembling pretty badly and I hope that goes away soon. I know having a drink would make the trembling go away but that is not an option. I need all the support I can get. Wish me luck and a prayer would not hurt either. Thank You.
nanodog nanodog
56-60, F
2 Responses May 18, 2012

I know what its like to break the denial and admit your are an alcoholic after suffering this horrible disease for many years. I suggest you remind your self that you are not a bad person trying to be good, you are a sick person trying to get well. Also remember if you dont take the first drink you can never get drunk. Some times it seems overwhelming to think you can not drink ever again, but dont let this thought consume you. it will only cause anxiety.and some times feel like an impossible task. Just focus on staying sober one day at a time,and dont worry about tomorrow,Christmas. Weddings.Birthdays ,etc. All you have to do is to stay sober today.Find a support group, statistics show you wont make it on your own. I attend Alcoholics Anonymous and it saved my life,this Illness is very underestimated and is fatal,I feel for you and wish you all the best for the future. GOOD LUCK NANODOG

Congratulations! You have taken a HUGE first step, and I'll bet it will be the hardest. I hope you surround yourself with positive people, and keep yourself only in healthy environments. Just remember, one step at a time, bit by bit and know that the reward will be worthy of these first shaky moments. When you feel weak, fall to your knees and pray, and remember you are never alone. Good job!

Thank you for the lovely comment. I can't wait to feel good. I don't know what it like to be sober. But I am so looking forward to it. I read that I may shake for months. I hope not. I also read that it takes 72 hours for all the alcohol to go out of my system. Again, thank you.

I have no experience in this area at all, but I don't think it matters if its alcohol, or drugs, or gambling or smoking.... whatever the issue is, its a struggle for the person trying to overcome it. I applaud you for wanting a better life for yourself, and knowing that you deserve it! Picture what you want for yourself and your life - and don't let anyone or anything take that from you! One day at a time... I wish you all the best.