One Step At A Time

I know what its like to break the denial and admit your are an alcoholic after suffering this horrible disease for many years.  I suggest  you remind your self that you are not a bad  person trying to be good, you are a sick person trying to get well. Also remember if you dont take the first drink you can never get drunk. Some times it seems overwhelming to think you can not drink ever again, but dont let this thought consume you. it will only cause anxiety.and some times feel like an impossible task. Just focus on staying sober one day at a time,and dont worry about tomorrow,Christmas. Weddings.Birthdays ,etc. All you have to do is to stay sober today.Find a support group, statistics show you wont make it on your own. I attend Alcoholics Anonymous and it saved my life,this Illness is very underestimated and is fatal,I feel for you and wish you all the best for the future.  good luck
Didlydudar Didlydudar
41-45, M
5 Responses May 19, 2012

"Luck" has nothing to do with anything as it's all a journey and all guided weather you are aware of it or not. It certainly was in my case. Today I resonate more with A Course In Miracles and the writings of Eckhart Tolle than anything A.A. related. The A.A. material all points to something vaster and greater than ourselves to solve the one problem anybody has which is separation from Love from the chips to the steps to the paintings and slogans on the wall. The "God" I met through the steps was way beyond my "understanding" so it became a question of "Where do we go from here?" I began to look at other "outside A.A." books for something that resonated with me, because nothing in A.A was valid for me anymore so it wasn't the question about if there is a "God" I just wanted to learn more about how "God" worked. Thank you.<br />
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We accept the reality of the world with which we are presented. Either you swallow the Kool-Aid, or you learn something different.

Well some luck was there , it was AA that opened up your understanding of God and lead you further to discover the power of now , and a new earth , I all so think any one who has been give a second chance to start a new life from this killer disease , is extremely lucky, all so we only get a daily reprieve , one day at a time from this thing , so I would like to wish you good luck for tomorrow , and may your spiritual journey continue :)

Beg to differ. I learned about A.A. through the court system a big "no no" in the fellowship. During my time investigating the institution of A.A. I became emotionally dry and I didn't know what it was. I do now. My first A.A. meeting I won a Big Book in a raffle. It was a preview of coming attractions although it would be many years down the line until I willingly and sincerely went to A.A. meetings and while meetings helped, the Big Book and reaching the end of my rope was the end of one thing and the beginning of something much bigger and grander than anything i could imagine or "understand". As for the fellowship, well they had other things in mind other than "helping" me. My biggest amend was and is to myself, by owning my own "yes" and own "no" today. "Luck" is of the ego, because "God" only knows "God" and doesn't know anything else.

I am an alcoholic who was sober for over 15 years and most of the past 25 years. This past winter I started drinking again and it has been a difficult struggle. It is hard to believe I would succumb to the temptation after all those years but then again - no - that is what an alcoholic is liable to do. I got drunk last weekend after another couple months of sobriety. I can not say why for sure. All I know is the desire will never go away. I have been doing one day at a time for the past week again. Really that is all any of us ever do but sometimes it is more obvious then other times.

Thank you for sharing - you are the only person I have told except my drinking buddy. He thinks he can control me - lmao. Nah if anyone could it would be me.

Just an update - I quit drinking again October 1st 2013. I am doing well and working with my sponsor in AA. One day at a time - hope you are well Lukeit

Thank you for this post,your advise is very sound.All addictions are very hard to break and we are only human,we need all the support we can get.

thank you my friend, from every one in the fellow ship around the globe

If one day at a time is too much, stay sober one hour, one minute, one second at a time. <br />
I am glad you have this insight. Good Luck my friend and stay well. If you ever need someone to talk to drop me a line.