Can Not Quit, Please Help.English is not my first language, I’m sorry in advance, I’m drunk right know, I hate it, I started drinking when I was 18, since then, I have slowly became a very very heavy drinker (12 beers 2 or 3 times per week). Now I’m 42. For the first time I try to end alcohol consumption.
After a week without alcohol I’m opening my todays 9th beer. Most of my friends are heavy drinkers too. They kill half of bottle of whiskey or more while I kill 12 light beers sometimes more. The next day is terrible for me, but I can still work well enough to invoice way more than my workers (I own a small company that improves the performance of other companies software, I’m still techy). I never drink in front of my kids (this summer I spent two weeks in Paris without drinking …while I’m in vacations with my kids I don t even have crabs) but here in my home town I can easily end up drinking by myself. I only smoke when I drink, but when I drink I can smoke 20 cigarettes or more. A month ago my tennis partner had a major injury (tennis injury), since then I have visit him often, but I have not play tennis or run or make any good enough exercise, ..just open my 10th beer. I am for sure an alcoholic. ….I’m normal in vacations but here in monterrey I can’t have a week without alcohol.
BTW I have drunk drive several times, one of them I felt asleep and hit a concrete column, but in a way that only the car was injured. Thanks God!
I’m writing this in hope of tips-help.
I have already (a minute ago) answer requests for tennis matches with some I hope future friends, and enroll in a fathers soccer team. (Last time I played soccer I had a to have a knee surgery, that’s when the big drinking started)