Some Times It Feels Hopless But Its NotI started drinking when I was in high school and by the time I was twenty five I was an alcoholic.I was able to excell In all of my work (only had five jobs in my life) because of my age.I lost my first wife because of drinking .When I remarrried I got my drinking under control and we started going to church.I stayed sober for almost 6 years and then we deceided to take a trip out to vegas,that started the down fall.
I cont to drink heavy and in the last year I drink a 12 pack plus 2 or 3 shooters every nite. It has got so bad that I was unable to do any paper work or even write because of the shaking so I started going to the liguor store in the morning so I could do my paper work( I am able to work from home).So i would pick up my shooters and think I might just as well pick up some beer now and save me a trip later.The problem with that was I am a field super for a const company and I'm supposed to go check on the northern jobs but by 10:00 I was toast I knew I could not cont so I have taken a month off.I have the support of my wife and my company and so this time I will make It no matter what I takes.Big talk for a alcoholic of 30 years,but If I don't start out positive then I will fail for sure.I will change something for the positive every day for the next 24 day. I make my wife take all of my credit cards and keys to my truck.I spent my first 5 days detoxing I then found this web site and starting taking some time on my knees.Don't get me wrong I'm scared to death to fail but I'll be dead before long If I don't try
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