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I Am An Alcoholic

I Will Never Drink Again!!

By: lagatta
Written on January 3rd, 2013
By: lagatta
Age: 41-45 , Female
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  • sofyablank

    How have you been doing lately??

    Apr 4
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    • lagatta

      Sobriety wise I'm doing well! Chemo is also going well. Tumour has gone from 8cm to 1cm and my body is tolerating the chemo well so I haven't had many side effects other than hair loss and fatigue.

      Apr 5
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    • lagatta

      And how are you?

      Apr 5
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    • sofyablank

      Am glad to hear that.... Not much left and soon recovery party on the way :)

      Apr 6
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  • Olmed

    Never stop fighting! And no regrets. We are here for you!

    Mar 18
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  • tito2003

    cancer is a *****

    Mar 12
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  • dolmen123

    rayohope that was some stupid thing to say, has she not got enough going on? how can you say she might feel more fortunate ? i suspect you are a male , probably of the cloth. In which case, you're totally deluded anyway.

    Mar 6
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  • 1NewWorldToronto

    I will drink for you. Sorry to hear about your cancer. Thinking of you now.....sending you hope. :)

    Mar 3
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  • mycuzinvinni

    i am sad about your cancer but happy you are not drinking there are ways to get well look at every avenue sad thing there are cures the government has but will not release them to the ppl ******* government here is evil lol vinny

    Feb 26
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  • dickweed53

    Hang in there girl, Life without drinking for me has been a real work out. I am 25 years sober and have had family members die and lost loves but, have not had the need to pick up a drink. Life is short and i try to life my life as if it were my last. Because we never know when that may be true. great job again.

    Feb 20
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  • sofyablank

    Hey Lagatta, How are you doing now days?

    Feb 7
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    • lagatta

      I'm hanging in there! I have a long way to go! Drinking is no longer an issue for me!

      Feb 7
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  • Hun1

    lagatta I hope you are doing well, I send you my best wishes for a positive outcome.. I too have breast cancer but no where near as aggressive as yours.... I was lucky I caught it very early and need very little treatment... However my gp also tried to tell me it was nothing.. he sent me away saying it was fibrous tissue and to go back after a month and we will re-assess.. I went back and he still felt it was innocent but decided to refer me to "put my mind at rest" imagine my shock when faced with the news that i had a malignant breast lump..... I refer to myself as being lucky because my cancer is a very low grade and caught so early that hopefully it is contained in the lump only.. I have had the surgery to remove the lump and lymph node from under my arm and now have to wait for two weeks for the results...my possible treatment will be three weeks of radio therapy......

    I wish you all the luck with your battle and just feel from your writing that you will hit this head on and fight it with all you have to give.... don't let the monster grind you down...

    Once again good luck!!!!!

    Feb 6
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    • lagatta

      Thanks so much for your kind words! I'm sooooo happy they caught your cancer early. Breast cancer is one of the most treatable cancers if caught in time. Mine unfortunately wasn't but I'm remaining hopeful that I'll be a survivor.

      Feb 6
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  • ladyryan

    I wish I could share your braveness to my brother-in-law who's suffering with cancer. He thinks he is already dying and been losing his that fighting spirit he once had.
    You're such a brave woman. Thanks for posting this, yours is an inspiration.

    Jan 19
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    • lagatta

      I don't know what type of cancer your brother-in-law has, but I do know that no matter how bad the prognosis, there are always people who will beat the odds!! I know someone who has been in remission from Stage 4 cancer for 5 yrs! Now, if that doesn't give your brother-in-law and me hope, then nothing will!!

      Jan 19
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  • cajunbandit

    We all believe in you. We will all be here for you and together we will all fight the cancer with you. Sometimes life does take a wrong turn on us. But then we find the right path. Never give up. We love you.

    Jan 19
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  • zinzand

    I would like you to try, this little food suplement, call "TBL-12" am sure it will help you. You can go online and check the website at www.tbl12.com.

    Jan 17
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  • Somaref

    thanks for sharing your story. I am very positive that a lot learnt from it. :)

    Jan 16
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    • lagatta

      Thank you! One of the things that is getting me through this is my hope to inspire and help others!!!

      Jan 16
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  • rayohope

    Dear EP User,
    I deeply sympathize with you.
    From what I have read, I understand that you must have felt that you might not be able to live long. Why not live positively? Instead of drinking excessively, why not volunteer your time to do some meaningful works like visiting those more helpless people, doing some meaningful religious work. Through these sort of meaningful volunteer works, you might sometimes find that you are more fortunate than some people. You'll feel happier and stronger to face it. Please, bear in mind, no living being, in this world, including you and me, lives forever. God bless you.

    Jan 15
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    • lagatta

      Is this a generic post? lol But yes I agree that addicts and alcoholics benefit from doing volunteer work. It puts meaning in their life.

      Jan 15
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    • dolmen123

      what a **** head. You may be dying... but **** you, forget about that and help the paedophile priests pretend to do some charity work..... is this guy for real??

      Mar 6
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  • RedRubies

    Lagatta, I am just popping in again to send more support and hugs. What lovely responses you have received... once thing I really like about EP is the fact that it is easy to connect with others who have been through something similar in many cases, and can offer tips and hope.

    This sounds a bit silly, but I am really proud of you....you are LIVING!

    Jan 14
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    • lagatta

      Awww....thank you Rubies!!! I appreciate your support and checking in! :) I'm actually doing great.

      Jan 14
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  • wantadona

    It is really to bad that we have to have something bad happen to us in order to wake us up! You have an amazing out look and a very positive attitude which will increase your chances greatly. Don't go back and dwell on the what ifs or what statistics say, speak positively and only listen to the positive. Prayer also helps!!

    Jan 14
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    • lagatta

      Thank you! Yes, sometimes the stats scare me but I try to keep positive. My oncologist said not to get too caught up with the stats as personal prognosis is very individual.

      Jan 14
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    • wantadona

      My mother in-law was diagnosed with lung cancer and this was a long time ago and they told her she wouldn't make the year end. We told her she needed a positive attitude and believe that all things are possible and not to put all her trust in to what the doctors say because it is not the same for everyone and drs generalize alot of the time. Anyways she was able to live for 11 years and died from something else. And modern medicine has come along way since then!!!!

      Jan 14
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    • lagatta

      What encouraging news!!! I love hearing stories like that! Thank you for sharing! I will follow in your mother-in-law's step and be a survivor!

      Jan 14
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  • LDS65

    Hello fellow Alcoholic....my name is Lance from Calgary Alberta Canada, I am an alcolholic drug addict! I want to congratulate you on your remarkable courage! You are truley a great example of hoe A.A. and the Twelve Steps of Recovery can change lives! I am forty seven years of age going to take my first time ever in my life six months tag on Thursday....I am a Hep C surviver currently on Interferon Treatment......seven weeks left of forty eight weeks! My life has changed one hundred eighty degrees!! I am happy Peaceful and Serene!! I thrive on life and want to help others!!! I know my Personal Higher Power is helping me twenty-four-seven, and I am ever Greateful! I wish you all the best in your future....I will be praying for you sweet Lady! Kiss Kiss Hug Hug......BE HAPPY! Later.......
    Luv Lance Stevens xxx ooo

    Jan 13
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    • lagatta

      I'm happy for your recovery! It's hard work but worth it!

      Jan 14
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  • itshow8888

    thk 4 sharing

    Jan 13
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  • Addie98

    I'm so amazed how you feel... Its the greatest thing that you have that positive aspiration to battle against this ugly word ''Cancer''. God makes miracles and i know he will to you.. Keep doing what your doing and soon you will be cured.. Your an example for many ppl who are negative...

    Jan 13
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    • lagatta

      Thank you Addie!

      Jan 13
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  • spottletoes

    Bless you,your body has the ability to heal itself,and your positive thinking has put you on the right track,go on you tube and start listening to Wayne Dyer,and Louise Hay,they are a must to listen to,both have had serious cancer and cured themselves,look up John of God a Brazilian doctor who is carrying out miracles on people who have had no hope.
    You are a powerful creator of your own experience,tell yourself everyday I AM WELL,keep the affirmation going,also watch Bruce Lipton,you can do it girl,and I am sending healing energy your way! x

    Jan 13
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  • kelsey43

    Your letter moved me to tears you sound like a fighter so stay strong and don't give up remember where their's life their's hope. Have you tried Essiac tea? you buy it in powder form it's made from the burdock root, Indian rhubarb, sheep sorrel and slippery elm bark, add water as instructions bring to the boil and leave overnight strain and drink, we put it in a large pop bottle in the fridge. My son was given a few packets by a friend after he got cancer (Hodgkinsons Lymphoma) and he drunk the tea for a good two weeks before his chemo and he said it made him feel good. Three years later after radiation therapy they told him the cancer was gone, he has now been clear for 7 years and I pray he will continue to be so. I am autoimmune and also drink the tea when I go through a bad patch it helps a lot my sister also takes it. I wish you luck.

    Jan 13
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    • lagatta

      Thank you! I will try the tea. I wish you and your family all the best!!

      Jan 13
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  • clouds2sunshine

    Greetings Lagatta.
    Ironically just got a few stories in my mail & picked yours and Wow how it hits home. Except I'm the NOW Ex-girlfriend of an Alcoholic who acts invinsible. He's got every/all tools at his fingers but Nothing works...I finally threw in the towel for my own safety. He's on a path where he simply enjoys living this alcoholic life & no matter all the wonderful things he has, he choses drinking/druging. I decided to exit the roller coaster, but we still reside together. I'm even ready to part ways with him completely. I told him, he's on a reckless path (drinking & driving, druging, etc) and tells him he's no true value for life. He's an amazing man to be cloned, except for this demon he continues to let rule him. What advice would you have for me at this point, I'm open to hearing anything you have to offer.

    Jan 12
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    • eemu

      For starters do what you can to prevent him from driving drunk (taking keys away) or alert authorities if he's on the road. Secondly evaluate your own role if any in contributing to his choice by staying and how much it affects or hinders your own life. You have made it clear to him that his behavior is self distructive and on some level he no doubt knows it. Yet he continues on this path. If he refuses to seek help at your encouragement then it may be time to cut the ties so you can live your life knowing that you loved him and did the best you could for him

      Jan 12
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    • lagatta

      Clouds2Sunshine, This is a difficult one! It is impossible to convince an alcoholic/addict to stop. They must want it for themselves. For me, it was just that I decided to choose life. I didn't want add the additional risk of alcohol to the mix of cancer, chemo, radiation and surgery. I wanted to give myself the best living chance. But previous to that, although intellectually I knew I was playing Russian Roulette it didn't feel that way because like your boyfriend I seemed to be getting away with it. The ONLY thing you can do is live your life. You may have to leave him. He will need to hit his own bottom before he realizes he wants a change. I am sorry I couldn't be of more help! I really wish there was an easy answer and I could take away your pain!!

      Jan 13
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  • troyo

    well as a ex drinker, I think it is worderfully inspiring that you have all those positive attributes and gives hope to people who don't think change is possible. You did it and maybe others can do it with out having to get some dred disease.

    Jan 12
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    • lagatta

      Yes, hopefully my story can inspire others to change their life and attitude too!

      Jan 12
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  • kaycandles

    Your positive attitude will beat cancer

    Jan 12
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    • lagatta

      Thank you!

      Jan 12
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  • tinaE

    Your positive attitude will help you through this. Never give up! In addition I suggest you start juicing - vegetables and fruits, preferably organic - to replace regular foods for a while - the first three days may be a little difficult but the craving for regular food goes away and you get used to drinking your food. Drinking the juice every 2-3 hours or when you feel hungry. Start with a liver cleanse juice ( I found this one online and made and drank it last week. I do a lot of the juices from http://fitlife.tv/juicing-for-weight-loss/. Do your own search on the internet there are many other juicing recipes. Tasty green juices and lots of combinations are available.
    Liver cleansing JUICE
    ¼ Beet, 2 small carrots, ½ large cucumber, Handful watercress, Half large pear,
    1 peeled lemon, 1 leaf swiss chard, 2” wedge red cabbage
    I drank the juice before going to bed and - felt amazing the next day and continue to feel great since - have lost some weight too! I have given up all meat and live on entirely plant based foods, all fresh veggies and fruits and cooked beans. Also use rice protein powder with almond or coconut milk. I cut the dairy too - replaced with almond and coconut milk or rice milk - you can also make your own if you don't like the store bought ones. Again lots of recipes online. An additional cleanse I am using is Dr. Miller's Holy Tea that you can order online at Amazon. It really cleanses you!! There are video testimonials of people who used the tea to regain their health from cancer. The great feeling of well being continues! My next check up is in 2 months and I am expecting great results.. Best wishes for good health and good luck to you.

    Jan 12
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    • lagatta

      Thanks for the info. Do you have cancer and at what stage? Are you doing only doing fasting? I'm just curious. I'm also keeping a healthy diet, exercise daily and eat as much cancer fighting foods as possible. Message me if you feel private about your diagnosis but I always like to talk to others in my situation.

      Jan 12
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  • Ethiopian

    I recommend the endless blessings of the awesome power in Christ's death on the cross, a.k.a., "the first-born from the dead", accompanied by an endless number of people once deceased but who were raised to life (Matt. 27: 50-53). That includes you and me. One can survive not only cancer but also death itself! (John 11: 25-26) God bless you.

    Jan 12
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  • mtson

    I was inspired enough by your story that I am writing about my own procrastination process I went through, before searching for causes -- and hopefully cures -- for my colon cancer.

    Stay on the path to wellness!

    Jan 12
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    • lagatta

      I wish you all the best! You can do it!

      Jan 12
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  • osterclipper000

    That took alot of "courage" to open up as you did and i will put you in my prayers and hope---no not hope but "know" your going to beat the odds---just know that "GOD" is with you at all times.John

    Jan 12
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    • lagatta

      Thank you!

      Jan 12
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  • Shajimaji

    it is a real eye opener. Thanks for sharing it. It is very rare someone realizes and accepts his/her own mistakes and open it up to public. As an old saying " things happens late is better than never" Let us note it down in our hearts to ensure we won't be in such a sharp end in our lives.

    Dear friend,
    Keep up your courage and such inspiring positive attitude throughout your live and everything possible to your illness cured. Do not ever let your positive min down. And we all really want to see/hear you back soon with your winning flag/smile.

    I wish and pray for you the best and all success in life, especially in the mentioned life battle.

    Jan 12
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    • lagatta

      Thank you for your kind and encouraging words!

      Jan 12
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  • climbinghigh

    Thank you for sharing. Your story really inspiring. I really admire your new attitude...keep it up. God loves you & He choose you to help others!

    Jan 11
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    • lagatta

      Thanks! I never thought of it that way, but perhaps you are right. He did choose me to help others.

      Jan 12
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    • Ethiopian

      I agree.

      Jan 12
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