I Am An Alcoholic - Day 4

It has been 4 days since I took my last drink. I have quit sweating at night.... but the cravings are still there. Oh, how I crave for that drink. Last night was the worst for my cravings.. I called my sponsor, who helped me alot and I was able to sleep last night. I am sooooo bored all the time and I don't know what to do with myself. I read at night and that seems to calm my nerves. My husband asked me if I wanted to watch a movie tonight and the first thing that came to my mind was alcohol, because that is what we did everynight for the past 2 years. Am I strong enough? Am I able to control myself? Am I able to say "NO" to who has been my best friend for the past two years?? I want to do this for myself, I want to do this for my family, I want to do this for my son, who doesn't deserve to grow up with a drunk mother. Oh, how I want that first drink, which has always turned into two, then three, then four, then.........

God give me the strength to say "NO", god give me the strength to go to bed sober everynight and wake up clearheaded every morning, god give me the strength to do this for my son!!!

Thank you for listening.
cmoats81 cmoats81
31-35, F
5 Responses Jan 6, 2013

Your story sounds very similar to mine. I'm very happy for you and I know it's very difficult because I am going to try my very best to give up drinking. It's going to be really hard in the evenings and my husband and I have been drinking every night for the last four years and I have a 2 y/o daughter that doesn't deserve a DRUNK for a mom! Plus I know people have formed opinions of me due to my excessive drinking, I've done horrible things that I'm NOT proud of HURT people I love and just went on a Friday evening, Saturday all day and night drinking binge and I feel like crap! So I wish you the best of luck! xoxo

Woohoo!! 10 days!! Congratulations! You should be proud! Be happy with your accomplishment! 1 day at a time. Your success puts wind in my sails, as do all the successes I read about on here.

I am at 26 days. Never felt better!

Great news ! Congrats for the 9 miracles cmoats !
keep coming back !
Love n Hugs

Wish you all success in your efforts , cmoats81 !
Congratulations for the four miracles !
Yes, the mental craving is a strong, painful enemy.
But it is there, we can't wish it away, so we have to stay sober in spite of it.
But there are ways, not easy, but simple.
Go to meetings, Pray to God,call you sponsor, n keep coming back.
Love n Hugs

Thank you. This is day 9 for me. It has been a struggle, but I have a lot of support out there. I will continue to go to meetings and pray to god that I will not pick up that first drink, which in so many cases has led to many.

Hello,

How have you been? Hopefully this is your day 8 or 9 of being sober.

Today is day 25 for me. I will not have alcohol tomorrow. One day at a time.

You are strong enough to control the path your life takes. Power through those urges. Don't let demon alcohol win. Thinking of you and your sobriety.

:)

Thank you. This is day 9 for me. I have been going to one or two meetings a day. I have a lot of support out there and I will continue to going to meetings. I share my experience whenever I have a chance, and that helps me a lot. Congrats on your 25 days of sobriety. You are right.... it is one day at a time.