After 37 years of living without love or even compassion for another human being, I could go no further alone. The pain of loneliness finally overcame me and moved me to change.

 I knew from prays that I could love if I made the necessary sacrifices and worked hard. I found a talented psychiatrist that could help me change and I worked hard.

I found the one woman who could and did accept who I am. We married and had a son.  We were happy together but there was tension because of my drinking habits.

I knew it was to dangers for me to drink in public, so I always drank alone.

Only now that I was married I was not alone. I usually drank a quart of Bourbon and a 12 pack of beer. In a dark room. Listen to Pink Floyd or Voodoo music on headphones. 

 I stopped because I knew drinking was hurting my one chance to feel love and be loved. That was 22 years ago.

I am writing this today because I almost bought a bottle of Bourbon today 3/4/09.

I have some disturbing news at the Doctor today. No matter, it was just an excuse to get plastered.

I will get through today without drinking.

One day at a time. That’s how I have 22 years of sobriety.  One day at a time…DD       

Dewduster Dewduster
66-70, M
6 Responses Mar 4, 2009

How does it go? 'Just for today...' Keep up the good work - you're an inspiration!<br />
22 years? You must pat yourself on the back every day, and if you don't, you should! LOL

Thanks for sharing your story. You are a inspiration to me because it give me Hope that after 22 yrs and getting disturbing news you did't have to take that drink. That by living one day at a time you have 22 yrs of soberity I thank you for that message an I will put you in my prayers tonight. Thanks Ed

You're such an inspiration to me DD! It's minute by minute for me right now! I'm proud to say that today is one week for me! <br />
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I'm sorry you received disturbing news, I hope everything is ok!<br />
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Thank you bunches for sharing your story.........:)

Good for you DD! Stay strong...I hope your disturbing news ends up being sounds pretty intense...

God Bless you My Friend. There is nothing that could happen in our life today that picking up a drink won't make worse!! I encourage you to always remember "GOD COULD AND WOULD IF HE WERE SOUGHT." I love my AA Home Group. I love aa!! THAT A GIFT!!

I have been there. After a while those minutes and then days add up. We know we can make it this minute, this hour... We can make it. I am with you. EP is a wonderful place to meet others who are like us. Bless you...DD