Alcoholic, 19yrs Old

sad i know...i can't even legally buy alcohol yet, but i always find a way, and have enough friends over 21 where buying a half gallon is never a problem.



its just depressing that im so young and have been drinking daily for almost a year. i feel like i cant live without it.....

rjsloan rjsloan
4 Responses Jun 13, 2009

Yes, so was I for 30 years.....Now I have lost everything that was near to me...home,friends, and pets,job....better think again..I never knew what sneaking up on you meant until now...I even attended church regularly but missed the message...Take any steps needed to rid it from your life...It is a demon that manifests over time....Whatever you do, don't relapse because its 100 fold worse when you start back...Find an AA SPONSOR,or youth pastor....i was able to quit back in 2012, but was so weak I still made bad decisions....I beg you not to let this happen to yourself. It is hell on earth. I am weaker every day and praying that God will forgive me and take me back to Him. Let me know how you are doing.....I stayed alone too much because of my workday seeing so many people...It is never good to be alone for a long period of time....I spent every nite alone by choice and it ruined me....Long walks would have saved me too. I see horses in your picture.....get involved heavily with that....When you quit, walk away for good.....I was so happy when i stopped in 2009....but it lasted 3 months....things got back to normal and i started back...It was 7 times worse until I was forced to quit...Do not waste another minute or money with it..I could never wean myself off...I had to just stop...

At your age, you probably have nothing better to do, beside working to get money. So, Since your drinking is based on being bored, take the money and become a professional gambler, like one dollar at a time. I too drank several times a week, being bored, but once I started online poker, at 25 cents, 50 cents, I realized I had to be sorbor to beat dum pla<x>yers. Now I go to the casino for $25 games and win. My drinking is social and not overpowering. I also go to meetings and help others with their problem, cause I beat the system of drinking.

get to a AA meeting. it's totally free. they pass a basket at the end to put in a dollar, but if you pass, it's no big deal. you have a great opportunity here. you know you have a problem and you can save your life a whole lot of bullshit and pain. i'm a recovering alcoholic myself. i'll have two years sober in july and these have been two of the best years i've had in a long time. i'm gonna add you to my circle. i guess that will make me a fan in your profile. i'm not exactly sure how that works. if you ever need to talk or just unload some bullshit, i'm here to listen.

Please get help. You have your whole life ahead of you. <br />
Open the phone book and look for resources. Crisis services might be a good place to start. many services are free. <br />
Best of luck to you. Take care of yourself.