I'm not an alcoholic... I just drink a lot... alone or with someone. And actually I'm here right now typing this because if I wasn't trying to distract myself I would probably be downstairs chugging down some alcohol. I dont feel as if I'm an alcoholic. I've been drinking by myself since November 2008. And ever since that I do it a lot. I tried to quit, once, it was hard and it lasted a month. But I decided that it didn't have much point to it. For some reason I feel that alcohol can somewhat help me out with some stuff, and it makes a boring night become amazing. I can see the positives, but I should start looking at the negatives too. Cause I know there are more negatives than positives. Drinking isn't worth it, even if I feel that it is.
I feel as if I can stop at anytime, and that I don't have a problem. Maybe I'm in denial.. but I dont feel as this is a big issue... but I do feel as if it can become a big problem and I can become an alcoholic.
Anyways, typing this was a distraction away from drinking, and even though I still feel like drinking, it still helped me sort out my thoughts.