I forced myself to go to a meeting tonight because I really didn't want to go. I knew I needed it. I've felt pretty sh*tty all day. I went to the meeting and told everyone I was feeling sh*tty. I got a lot of support & empathy & talked to people who felt like sh*t , too.
I don't know...I've been having alot of ups & downs lately, I've been so busy with school & work I'm neglecting things. I'm not seeing my grandmother like I should, I'm not getting things done around the house, I'm not getting to meetings like I shoud, or keeping in touch with my sponser. I'm exhausted, getting on the verge of a major depressive episode, feeling guilty, I could go on & on but I won't.
I just want things to be on an even keel. I don't need extreme happiness (if that even exists).