Am I An Alien & Where Am I From?
I think I am an alien… at this stage I am not sure which kind and/or species or even from where (maybe someone can give advice). This is a brief overview of my story.
For a very long time I thought that I felt something when I get close to people. Sometimes I could pick-up their feelings and/or mood, other times I could vaguely hear what they are thinking, (not clear) just little flashes if I could describe it as that. At first I thought I was hearing little voices in my head but at least they did not tell me to do anything, and it only occurs when I am close to other people. A Large crowd of people are an absolute nightmare for me. The input from all around me gets too much and I end up struggling to concentrate on what I am doing. My wife realized this long ago and actually tries to keep my attention with certain specific questions and comments. This does help but not for long.
When we have been to a shopping mall or show where there were lots of people, afterwards my mind feels fried and then I need to rest in silence to recover. I also find different people less and more tiring. Again, when we take a walk in the bush and/or on the beach I can feel something I can only think of as the energy being emitted from the plants, trees & earth. This sensation does not stay the same; as I walk it will constantly change.
Other times when having conversations with other people (humans- I think), I suddenly find myself being so extremely bored I could scream. I will struggle through such a conversation and be very relieved when it is over. It also sometimes feels as if people around me are inferior and I could not even be bothered to have a conversation with them. If I have to talk to them I will think of something else to keep my mind occupied.
I find it a lot that only with some people when I talk to them they get excessively nervous and flustered. They will say wrong things and even pronounce their words wrong. My wife jokes sometimes and says that my aura is too strong for the other people… But, I also experience this sometimes myself. I must admit, very few people I have ever dealt with has had this effect on me but nonetheless, I have felt flustered and strange in certain people’s company, I feel stupid and relieved when I can get away from them, almost as if it is something unconsciously urging me to get away.
Sometimes (not always) I know someone is close before they even appear or knock. A lot of times people say to me to get out of their heads as I sometimes know what is going to be said. Not that I heard it, it’s as if I just know. I am not the world’s most patient person but still amaze myself of the patience I am capable of. In my 36years of life on this earth I had about 4 massive anger outbursts (lots of little ones) my problem with this again is that when I get to such a point where my anger takes over and I flip out as they say then I experience the strangest sensation. Apart from the normal quick breathing and high blood pressure that comes with being furious I also see strange images in my mind & feel as if the energy in my mussels and veins want to burst out and control me. When I get so furious my senses get so fine I get Goosebumps on my skin. Now I am starting so sound weird to myself…
I see space as if I am traveling trough it at high speed. I have this unsatisfying urge to protect my family, even if they are not even involved in this. It feels as if time slows down and I see things in slow-motion. Once I almost imagined seeing the other person as energy and I could imaging seeing their blood racing trough their veins.
Always when I look at space I have this emptiness I cannot explain and it is not difficult at all for me to imagine traveling through space which gives me a familiar feeling like seeing a distant relative again. You know this person although you haven’t seen them for years and soon you are sitting and chatting about the olden days. This is how I feel about space and also water. Being under water truly calms me down. I sometimes go under water and just sit for as long as I can hold my breath. The silence is so satisfying, almost like eating comfort food…
So! If someone out there reads my story and could give me some guidance regarding where I could be from and what species of alien I am, I would love to hear from you.