Feeling So Empty
I was just married on November 21st and my new husband had to leave just 4 days after the wedding. I knew this was going to happen when we planned it but when it actually happened it hurt way more than i thought it would. so we've been married almost a month and we've been dating just over a year. He leaves again in march for his second tour and even thought he is in the states right now, not being able to be with him leaves me feeling so empty. i fell like i pull away from him sometimes because i dread him having to leave for 18months. i guess the scariest thing about the deployment besides the fact that he is in danger is the unfamiliar I havn't experienced anything like this before, the whens are killing me... when will he able to call or write, when will i get to see him again is he going to be ok? it scares the crap out of me. i want to just be there for him and protect him but i know thats not always going to be possible. i am only 21 and not alot of my friends or even my family understands all of my worries. All i can do is cry I feel bad when i cry in front of his i know it breaks his heart to see me worried but i dont know how else to handle how i feel.